adoption

I FEEL LIKE I AM CAUGHT IN A
VICE
IT IS NOT SQUEEZING OUT MY LIFE
RATHER, IT IS STOPPING ME FROM MOVING
THAT IS WORSE

I THINK THAT I AM STUCK IN QUICK
SAND
IT IS NOT A DROWNING FEELING
I KNOW I MUST FACE ALL MY UGLINESS
THIS IS HARD

I SEE A FAMILIAR PATH AHEAD
IT IS NOT THE RIGHT WAY FOR ME
RATHER, THAT WOULD UTTERLY DISTROY ME
THIS IS PAIN

I SENCE A DOORWAY TO MY
RIGHT
IT IS NOT ANYWHERE I HAVE BEEN
I KNOW I MUST SEEK OPPORTUNITY
THIS IS FEAR

I kissed my big boy's face today
It's an ordinary sharing
I feel complete sadness at this
small thing
FUTURE LOSS