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| I finished writing my journal for an hour.(y'know paper and pen.) I'm not sure what just happened. Everything that I just wrote sounds like some ancient philosopher or something. If this were HSR I'd say I was glimpsed by an Aeon. Considering this is real life, I'm going with I somehow accessed part of my mind that doesn't normally get out onto paper. I didn't do anything special I just sat down and suddenly stuff that wasn't fiction but wasn't hard core non-fiction either just happened. No drugs, no whirling, no prayer or meditation. |
| It's nice that 1 in 100 drivers yields for pedestrians on a two way street. The only problem is that the 50 or so going the other direction either don't stop and/or the remainder go around that well meaning individual. There's only three stoplights in my township. And they are synched up so it's hazardous for people to cross anywhere else. There's also people who insist on keeping several large high strung dogs of breeds meant for hunting or herding. And every one of them is trying to police anybody who goes past their fence. They are also blocks from any stoplight on my route to the store. I do not have a car for another few days. I hate walking on the same side of the street as those four legged, insecure yappers. Crossing the street is my only way to keep from going postal. The traffic during summer is almost as annoying. So bless their little hearts for stopping to let me cross. However, it's a little like setting a sandwich next to someone who can't eat the food. |
| Today I got mail for someone named Wibeke Reiley. There's only two people who live at my house, neither of us is named Wibeke. I'm gonna create a character using that first name! |
WakeUpAndLive  - also did a web search and nothing came up for the exact name or spelling of that name...getting stranger. |
| Meanwhile, back at the film studio... Vibeke, not Wibeke, was an assistant desk clerk in the hotel that got wiped out during the tsunami in 2015's The Wave. |
| "You know those times when the sun is also a bomb? This is one of those times." —Crazy Dave in Plants Vs Zombies 2 Seriously having a heatwave in New Jersey. Thanks to there being no clouds in the sky, despite it being only 82, it feels like 95 Fahrenheit. Staying inside and hoping the AC holds out. On that note it's the perfect day to write some post apocalyptic Sci-fi! |
| Finally got 580 words of outlining done. Figured out one continent. Hoping to figure out the other four areas during a quiet moment.(three continents and some place known only as the steamies. It's supposed to be a made up adjective for a place so hot only silicon based lifeforms can live there. Water superheats in the steamies. The things living there drink molten magma and require high temperatures to function.) Is this going to be Urban Fantasy or Sci-Fi? Heck if I know; probably the first one because there's magic but there's also technology. |
Internet...if it ain't broken it ain't working. Computer problems. |
Spud  - Thank You. If the power was out for any length of time, we would have had some problems but being that he got it back on within 5-7 minutes, it worked out ok. It was spooky for a moment because we didn't know how long it was going to take. They delivered the new Inogen portable O2 Machine about an hour ago with all new batteries fully charged. They took all the older batteries and the older machine. Just glad it all worked out.  |
| I finally stopped throwing a tantrum and set not one but three goals. One begins immediately and that is time management. I, Spud (aka insert rl name here), will make a schedule out of play dough. I will set aside two hours (I think from 1-3pm) for writing. Long term I will submit some piece of writing to a publisher(I've been eyeing apple books but still open to suggestions.) Time frame:6 months to 2 years from now I plan on having a piece with my own name on it published. Longer term: be my own boss as a professional genealogist. All that stuff and still write. Time frame:5-7years. In the meantime, I'm telling myself to find a regular job. |
| Lord, my brain is so ingrained with video games from when I used to play them nonstop that "rl" automatically translated to Rocket League in my brain instead of real life. I was like, ooooh you play? |
Allan Charles 🐾 2340534  - I'm not sure I've played that one. But I do have a thing for HSR(Honkai Star Rail) ZZZ(Zenless Zone Zero), LoTR. Anyways in this context rl is shorthand for real life. |
I've just edited an item in my portfolio:
It's only 18+ because there's something at the beginning that if you're dirty minded like me, could be a bit naughty. |
| Father's day is simple for many. For those of you that lucky, congratulations for having an uncomplicated relationship with your dad(s). One of my worst memories is where my dad tore up the father's day gift my mom had made for him and called the DVD my brother and I had picked just for him "thoughtless". He had just finished yelling at us for something (I can't remember what, probably dinner not being ready when he wanted.) After all that he stomped into the master bedroom and shouted "You can take all your heartless, thoughtless gifts back to the store!" It got worse because I felt like it was all my fault somehow. I thought if I ended it all that somehow that'd make things better. So I went to the bathroom and tried to slit my wrists. I sat on the couch and waited for the end. My mom and brother were in the living room. I wanted my last moments to be with them. Anyways the final cherry on the top was my dad stomping up behind mom while she was trying to stop the bleeding. I don't know why I'm sharing this. I dislike Father's day intensely because of this memory and I'll probably regret putting this in the newsfeed. Anyways go find something else to brighten your mood. I'm gonna stop being emo now. |
| Perhaps you share it because it's important for your healing process? I couldn't think of any other reason besides that. Not everyone will have strong, deep and loving relationships with their parents. It hurts because family is, ultimately, the first and closest relationship a person can get (or one of the closest, if you consider marriage the closest), and to be spurned so early in life, to always receive their scorn and being unable to escape as they live with you, causes deep scars. I have no words for the decision that led you into doing what you did, if only because words can hurt. But they can also heal, and while I lack those words too, expressing this in such a public place means releasing that anguish so that it no longer burdens you. I can say it can be a lesson. Maybe it's a lesson on how to be a better father, or a better family member, or simply a lesson on the power of words, but it's a lesson nonetheless. Just remember that, while the day recognizes all loving fathers that become inspirations for their children (the very reason the day was acknowledged), not everyone can meet these standards. Though it's considered a holiday, it's not a holiday for everyone - just as holidays in one country happen earlier or later in another. (Labor Day, Christmas for example.) Which means not everyone has to celebrate it - and that's fine. |
Adherennium  - thanks I'll try. Guess I'm lucky I don't have kids of my own to screw up. I've been trying to be kind, selfless and gentle. I don't succeed all the time. But I'm glad you became a good parent. That is something to be proud of.  |
| It's not Father's Day here. My dad died when I was ten, almost 11. My 2 sisters don't remember him; I do. He taught me how to be a dad - everything he did, I do the opposite. Things were tense between us when he died. If he'd lived? Well, my life would have turned out very different. He is also one of the many reasons I am an atheist. Many have complicated relationships with their fathers; I have tried not to do that with my own two. |
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