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This is life~people come and people go, and all we can do is welcome the new ones while wishing the best for those departing. Although we can’t dictate everyone’s fate, we long to hold onto those we care for. Left with lovely memories, we gaze at our shared photos, laughing and wishing for us never to be apart. Yet, we can’t control life, taking our loved ones away from us. I’ve grown familiar with goodbyes, but every new goodbye evokes that very first farewell. Tears trickle down my cheeks, unnoticed, and all I can do is brush them away and try to smile. What brings me comfort is that I know they’re well, and I will always have pictures to remember them by.
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After we met, I was overwhelmed by a peculiar sensation, a feeling that had long been forgotten. I soared high above the moon, amidst the twinkling stars, filled with an indescribable joy. That night, sleep eluded me as I replayed every moment we shared in my mind. Though our encounter was brief, it radiated happiness and warmth. I didn't have the courage to meet your gaze directly, but I couldn't help but notice your eyes upon mine. Uncertainty gripped me as I pondered your current emotions. Do you feel the same way about me? I am unsure. Perhaps I merely appear attractive to you, or maybe you're grappling with your own confusion and can't find the words to express it.
I don't know, and honestly, I don't need to know. It's true that we don't have a future together, but your presence in my life holds immense significance. I want to express my gratitude for rekindling a feeling that I believed had faded away. You are my favorite person, and that sentiment will forever remain unchanged.
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One of my biggest fears is that I will grow old and die alone. Unfortunately, today seems to be a trial of that fear. While everyone around me is celebrating, I find myself left alone. The sounds of people's laughter and enjoyment from the street reach my ears, but they only serve to confuse me further, as my mind is consumed by thoughts of solitude and despair. Being alone can have its advantages, but only when it is a choice we make willingly. Being forced to be alone, however, is the most agonizing experience of all.
As I sit in the darkness of my empty home, the weight of my fear presses down on me like a suffocating blanket. The muffled sounds of joyous conversations and cheerful music seep through the closed windows, reminding me of the vibrant life I am missing out on. Outside, the world is alive with people coming together, forming connections, and sharing moments of happiness. Yet, here I am, trapped in the confines of my own thoughts, grappling with the haunting possibility that this solitude may extend until my last breath.

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I'm really sorry to hear about your situation. It must be incredibly challenging and isolating to feel invisible and have limited interaction with others. It's important to remember that you are not alone, even though it may feel that way. There are organizations and resources available that can provide support and assistance to individuals experiencing homelessness. It might be helpful to reach out to local shelters, social services, or community organizations that can offer guidance and connect you with resources for housing, employment, and other support. Additionally, consider talking to a mental health professional who can provide valuable support during this difficult time. Remember, there is hope, and reaching out for help is a courageous step towards improving your situation.
I think you're beautiful, Raghda Author Icon! You're loving and compassionate and you've offered s the same kind of honest, caring advice any of us here might offer you. It's important to remember that you are not alone, even though it may feel that way. There are organizations and resources available that can provide support and assistance to individuals experiencing [experiencing depression or despair] ...consider talking to a mental health professional who can provide valuable support during this difficult time. Remember, there is hope, and reaching out for help is a courageous step towards improving your situation.

I know how painful it can be to hold these "solutions" in your logical mind and not have the energy or emotional stamina to take a step, any step. Your post here today is a step, and I think your response to Steven shows how open you are to communicating with others in this community, which can go a long way to creating some momentum for yourself. I'm not a therapist and I don't have any degrees, but I want to encourage you to believe in your own future as much as you believe in Steven's. Please email me if you want to talk about reaching out for help, how to find resources, and other ways you can take care of yourself while you're going through these dark times alone. (You won't feel alone forever. *HeartV*)
Buddhangela's switching it up! Thank you so much for your kind, wonderful, and beautiful remarks. Sometimes we know the solution but can't get to it. I feel a lot better when I express myself.
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As I sit here waiting for your random messages, my mind is filled with hope and uncertainty. I long for the surprise message that tells me you miss me, that you want to be with me as much as I want to be with you. Despite the fact that we're in the same place, texting each other, I can't help but wonder why we haven't taken the next step and sat beside each other.



Perhaps we're both waiting for something unknown, hesitant to make a move that could change everything. Yet, as I look into your eyes, I see a desire that matches my own. I know you want me, and part of me wants to surrender to that desire. But another part of me is overwhelmed by fear, uncertainty, and doubt.



I feel lost, torn, and ragged, the weight of my emotions almost too much to bear. But at this moment, all I crave is the peace and comfort of your embrace. A few days, or even just a few hours, in your arms, would be enough to quiet my chaos, to give me the strength to face whatever comes next.



So let's take a step, move closer, and see what happens. Let's take a chance on each other, and see where this journey takes us
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Really nice--I like this. The only suggestion I have is to see if you can find something more unique than 'quiet the storm raging inside me' because I feel like we see that a lot. You could still have that same idea and add alliteration for interest if you wrote something like 'hush the hurricane in my heart' or 'quiet my chaos.' Or you can go a different direction with something like 'harness my wild spirit.' These aren't necessarily world-class options. Lol But examples to give you ideas. *Wink*

If you want to edit what you wrote, you can click the little arrow thing in the upper right corner of your note and choose Edit Note. A text box will appear under your note. Make your changes and save them. If you realize you need to edit again, you need to refresh the page in order to do so.

Good luck. Good work. *Smile*
Thank you! I'll go for 'quiet my chaos.'
Imaginary conversation



She asked, ‘’ Why did you come back?’

He said, ‘’ Because I want to spend the rest of my life with you.’

She laughed loudly and said, ‘ shall I?’

He said, ’ I know very well that I’m still the only man in your heart.’

She laughed even more louder this time and said, ‘How are you so confident?’

He said, ‘ I want us to raise our children together.’

She said in a stern tone, ‘ Us, children! You must be kidding.’

He said, ‘ Don’t be hardheaded! And let’s go to our home together.’

She said, ‘ What home? Do you even understand the meaning of home, Mr Confident?!’

He said, ‘ Yes, I realised its meaning . I want to be with you and with our daughter as a family.’

She responded sarcastically, ‘ Oh this is so sweet! I guess I have to cry and be over the clouds even I have to pray thanking god for this unbelievable moment! ‘

He asked, ‘Are you making fun of me?’

She retorted, ‘ Oh, thanks God that you’re smart enough to figure it out on your own!’

He kept silent.

She asked firmly, ‘Why are you assuming that I’ll say yes ! Did I give you a hint that I want to be with you AGAIN?! ‘

He said, ’ Because I know that you love me..’

she interrupted, ’ I used to , but now I don’t love or hate you anymore ! I even wish for you to find a hoe who will feed your arrogance since you can’t be with a good , pure one .’

He explained, ‘ I know my mistake ,and I want to redeem it.’

She said, ‘ So good for you! But let me tell you one tiny , teeny thing - you knew it very late ! ‘

He inquired, ‘Are you with someone now?’

She said’ I don’t think this is your business!’

He said, ’ No, it’s mine , hence my daughter lives with you.’

She said, ’ Your daughter! How funny you are !You weren’t like that when I left you !’

He said, ’ Yes, my daughter and I care deeply about her.’

She started laughing hysterically.

He became irritated. She noticed that.

She said, ‘ Okay I’ll try to stop , but please be reasonable! Your daughter who you see once a month! Your daughter who you don’t even bother yourself to check on her! ‘
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I don't think you need "He said / She said" quite so much and sometimes you can put it at the end or otherwise change it. But overall, nice work. If it was in your portfolio, more people may see it. Let me know if you need help with that, but generally, click to go to your portfolio on the upper left side bar. From the popup, click Create New Item. On the next page, choose to create a Static Item and you are on your way! *Smile*
Sitting in the corner of the cafe, drinking coffee and attempting to nibble on a pastry that seems to be too corroded to eat. Despite the loud music, I can hear people passing by on the street outside. I'm trying to collect my thoughts, but nothing seems to come to mind. However, I do feel a sense of freedom that I enjoy the most. It's getting a little hot, but I can't sit in the air-conditioned area since I'm smoking. Maybe I'm thinking that the love of my life will come across the road and look into my eyes, mesmerized by my beauty(although I'm probably exaggerating; I'm quite simple). But, I really feel a deep need to love and be loved . Of course, I have many people who have a crush on me, yet I'm not very interested in them. I'm still waiting for the right one, doubting that he will ever come.
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You have some cool writing. I hope you put it in your portfolio and don't just leave it here where it's unlikely to get noticed. *Frown* And on the Community Newsfeed, where i found this, it's not long before your writing is pushed down, not to mention, most folks don't get on the Community Newsfeed. It's only been 3 hrs and already 4 things are listed before your writing and it's 6 am in the US. When full day hits, it will soon vanish. *Frown*

And I think even fewer people will randomly go to a stranger's notebook to read things. But people do go to random portfolios and WdC pulls things from random portfolios and encourages people to review them. *Smile*

Check the Community Newsfeed to see what I'm talking about. Cluck Newsfeed on the left. It will take you to your Personal Newsfeed by default. Here you see official WdC notes and notes posted by anyone whose plus sign you have clicked one or twice.

Along the top, you will see "View the Community Newsfeed. " Click that and you will see what everyone is posting (within your rating limit). Scroll, Like, comment, and see what's going on around other parts of WdC. Not to mention, see how fast your notes are covered by others. *Frown* Plus they are only seen by people who have clicked your plus once or twice or the VERY few of us who get on the Community Newsfeed.

When you are on the Community Newsfeed, if you see a person you want to keep up with, I recommend double clicking their plus until you see the megaphone. This let's them know you fanned them. Some people will fan you back automatically. Some, like me, reward all new fans. Though I admit, most folks do nothing. If you click once and only see the finger with the string, it's private so they'll never know that you set them as a favorite so if they reward fans, like I do, they can't reward you. *Frown* Double click to the megaphone! *Bigsmile*
I didn't know that I will be happy that much.

Today is the day that my soul was released from its prisoner, from you.

I felt the same happiness once, and that was when we got married. And here I'm now feeling the same happiness when I left you giving you the cuffs and chains that you trapped me with, it's the time for me to say goodbye forever and cut this paper out of my book, and begin another chapter of my life which I will be the master of my own sea.



I didn't know that I would be this happy. Today is the day my soul was released from its captivity, from you. I felt a similar happiness once before, on the day we got married. And now, as I leave you behind with the cuffs and chains that once imprisoned me, I feel that same sense of elation again. It's time for me to bid you farewell forever, cut this chapter out of my book, and begin a new one where I will be the master of my own destiny.
What I really want to do is leave everything and go to a different place to meet different people and see what I’m capable of. I imagine myself preparing my suitcase, standing in front of the airport gates, getting my tickets, jumping into the plane, looking out of the window and wondering where I will be after 5 hours, freeing my mind from any negative thoughts or what I will face in my new life. I picture myself sitting in my chair with my hair towering up in a big bun. Then comes the moment that I dreamed of a long time ago when the plane is landing down in the Swiss lands. A shiver comes down all over my body, but I manage to gather everything and move.



People are queuing up to receive their luggage, and I’m waiting for my turn. I’m trying to stay calm. I can’t believe that I finally did it. I’m free from all the restrictions that I had before. I don’t have to wear makeup. I don't need to be overdressed to attract people anymore. I keep it simple now that my face is clear. My eyes may look tired, but they maintain their charm and innocence. My hair, long and wavy around my shoulders, matches well with my beige cargo pants, an oversized white t-shirt, a navy blue jacket, and white sneakers. I'm out of the airport, staring at the sky with gratitude for having the courage to break free and start anew. At 40 years old, not 20, perhaps the only visible difference is the few wrinkles around my eyes - my energy is the same, if not more. I walk miles to achieve all the dreams I've had since I was younger. Here is what happened three months ago: I contacted a company in Switzerland that was hiring offline copywriters. I applied and sent them samples of my work; they liked them and sent me a job offer, and they said that I had to be ready within three months. I couldn’t believe that I had been accepted, but I had lots of things to do. First of all, I had to tell my daughter where she would stay and how I would spend a year without her. I found support from all my family members, even my daughter; she understood the whole situation and wished me good luck. So I headed to the embassy and applied for the passport. I prepared everything, giving some of my savings to my family to cover Carla’s needs.





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