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| You must be extremely desperate to fabricate a lie to try to hold him down, sis. That lie bit you in the ass and now you don't know what to do. I feel sorry for you. To tell him that you were assaulted and then hurt your body, so that you can look like a victim... sheesh. I hope I never become that desperate. I am so sorry that this has happened to you. But to lie, is even worse. Walk away. Take care of yourself. I hope you get the help you deserve. |
| I have an obsessed ex friend. she said that she wanted nothing to do with me and I obliged and walked away. I don't force anyone to stay in my life. However, the fact that you are still trying to find ways to hurt me? what the hell is the problem? I left you alone and yet, you find it in your day to try to break me. Let's make this very clear. I'm nice but not stupid. I know when to walk away. But if you continue to poke me I will lash out. Trust me when I say this, you have never seen the bad side of me. Let's hope, for your sake, you wont have to see it as well. I'm trying to be civil. Keep it up and I'll be glad to introduce you to the wrong side of me. |
| Sometimes I feel silly chasing after you. I sometimes wonder if I am wasting my time. I think I hurt my own feelings because I want your attention and you are too busy doing other things. there are so many inconsistancies. And yet, I hold onto the little things you say to me. Maybe I should see the big picture and realize that I am wasting my time. |
| Am I being silly? I made dinner last night. My nephew comes home and prefers take out. Then I bring some to a friend and my crush. Friend says that he already brought dinner but that he will take him home so that he and his wife can eat it. My crush says he will eat it later, then buys himself a burrito. Before he leaves home he tells me that he will eat the food I brought, tomrrow, since his daughter made him dinner. I was so hurt... still am. I worked really hard and no one cared. I dont even want to cook anymore. |
| I dont want to fall for you because you are so unpredictable. but at the same time i want to see what will happen. Maybe a heartache, maybe somehting wonderful. all i do know is that when i am not near you, you get really crancky and so do i. but when we are together, we are so happy and carefree. I feel so peaceful in your presence. I don't understand how this can make you run. Is it me? or is it truly because the time is not right. We keep holding on to each other, even though it might not be the best thing to do. but I don't care, I want to stay. But will this kill me? I dunno what to do. |
| I seem to be doing these alot now these days. I want it to help me like it use to back in the day, my writing. I don't like what is happening to me right now. I have so many emotions porcolating through my body. This is the reason why I don't like to open up to anyone. Because I love hard. It's just sad to know that the one that I always fall for, is no good. Yet, even though I know this I am still trying to nurture the situation, still care for this individual! Why am I doing this to myself. Why can't I be those people that when they know something is no good they just leave. NO! I have to be the dumb butt that still wants to prove something? what that is exactly - I do not know what i want to prove. but i need to remind myself that it doesnt matter what they want, it is what I want. I want peace. that is all i can have that is all i desire. it's just hard. maybe i have to leave out of here and start new somewhere else. but i dont know if I want to do that as well.. I just need to stop... |
| This is a lot harder then what I thought. I was fine! Then I come back and I want it to be the same. But that is not the case and I need to be okay with it. I need to keep myself busy until I am okay again. I need to be okay, again. |
| I think I am doing good. I am staying away from this individual. It is true when they say to stay away, so that you can get better inside. Without seeing them, they may try to slip in my mind, but I brush it away and remind myself why I decided to walk away. They said they cared. But forgot to mention that they did not care enough to do anything about it. So, when you say: "You still love me!" I want to scream: "WHO CARES!" These feelings are not valid since there are no actions. I remind myself that actions are more important then words... |
| I am upset. I am very resentful towards an individual. I should know better and just let it be. But there is that part of me that wants to make them miserable. Because I feel miserable. I did not deserve this. I am a good person. And yet, this only brought me more pain and anger. And I am suppose to be okay with this? Yes... I know better. I am better and I need to let this die. Leave this individual in the past. But I see them and I have to fight within myself in order to be a civilized person. But deep down I want to lash out and hurt you. I realized that I cannot be your friend, ever. It is best that I stay away. And then there is the other side of me that wants to be with you, in hopes that you will change. What a silly thought! You have already showed me who you are! Why am I like this! I'm sick of you and I am sick of me! Sick of it all!!!! |
| Its harder to stick around and watch you become cold and distant. I want you to go so I can live my life instead of always wondering what you are doing. Or how you are feeling. I'll tell u this much, you seem to be perfectly fine to me. While I'm struggling to let you go. Honestly, I hate the fact that I cared for you way more then what you did. And that is literally my fault. I always fall for the wrong person. I wish I could learn. Wish I could tell you to go away. Cause right now you are just lingering. and even though I know that would be best for me, I can't help but want you around. It is hard to let someone go. Especially when you have no other choice. He wants nothing to do with me. I can't wait to wake up one day and no longer care. That is the day I am looking forward too, no longer wanting to see you. What a shame. I thought this was going to be different. Nah, it's all the same. I don't know what else to say, but maybe one day finally say goodbye. |
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- I really wish it was just a story. But there are some situations that are a living hell. and she is truly becoming a monster. 
- Truly, I do understand. But that is where the best stories come from. And ... I have found it is quite therapeutic to write them out, and then change the ending to something more satisfying.
- Thank you. I appreciate it. maybe they will realize that I dont have to do anything if i dont want too. hopefully they will appreciate it in the future. 
- Thank you for your kind words. have you ever thought something was going one way and then you realize that it went sideways. now you have to deal with it everyday because you work in the same enviorment. and you wish things were the same but you have to understand that it will never be okay. and you have to be okay with it? yeah... that is what I am dealing with today. lets see what happens tomorrow. 
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