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Rated: 18+ · Book · Spiritual · #1149750
10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind
Making sure everything goes down with a yank
before someone has to sit where I've been at.

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I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

         |
I'm sorry you got caught in the middle. - me


This poet’s words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The experience of discovery through writing is the truest reward that has allowed me to grow and learn who/what I am — what other people get naturally, immediately, while I stomp around in it.

Been blessed, but pushing it — envelope, world and all inhabitants away. Push buttons, find boundaries to trip traps. No clue why cat curiosity, living in your dark. (Bored, perhaps?)

Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me how I need to be viewed (if I knew what that was). Cryptic, yes. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid strange, virtual, wonderful walls that tower above, tempt me to scale.

Been more than I could imagine or expect here. But, achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall *Think*. I dig deeper than I should, often without forethought. Aimless words, brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit targets? Get a ‘back off’ shoulder shot when asking your motivations here. Not fair?

No prize to eye; not incentivized. Dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do best with what’s in hand.



My Pluggers:
You are an icon here.*BigSmile*
You suffer, but you suffer brilliantly. Wow, what a great writer.*Heart*


It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Poetic Referendum(s) On Life"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

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All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
#1300042 by Brian K Compton


No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube

Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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January 30, 2019 at 7:21pm
January 30, 2019 at 7:21pm
#950775
I don't believe it means anything...

They bury men with their hammers

My faded hat rests,
hung on the nail my father drove into a two-by-four,
caked with his plaster,
hidden
beneath my last coat of paint.


...it's just how I feel.
January 26, 2019 at 12:17pm
January 26, 2019 at 12:17pm
#950492
Something I struggle with is my yearly review. It boils down to: did I meet expectations, did I exceed expectations. I never thought to ask what is your idea of exceeding expectations, since year-in-year-out I'm told I meet them. I go above and beyond my station many times, fulfilling the needs of others before my own. They don't seem to acknowledge it for whatever reasons. Self-satisfaction in my own performance can only go so far. Eventually, a thank you and a pat on the back feel like nothing more than patronizing. So, I stop and ask myself why I toil only to realize there is no true oversight or acknowledgement of performance. It's just a rubber stamp for someone taken for granted.

What's important is pursuing what fulfills you. If you have to dial it back and put the focus on the true prize, what's stopping you? Get the psychology degree. Take that three month excursion to a place exotic, spend more time with family. Actually put away the mental dishes and get your house in order, put your feet up and appreciate your true domain.

You don't have to tell your employer to suck it. Smile. Tell them they are doing a good job when you see through their ignorance and deceit, because you don't have time to piddle around with what small people think. Bigger fish to fry here. So what if they only flip you an extra quarter. Take it. Put out in your pocket. Then, scheme on a real dream. Decide what will be worthy of your time and passion.

January 16, 2019 at 10:47pm
January 16, 2019 at 10:47pm
#949802

Through 12-plus years I've enjoyed sharing tributes to my family...especially my children. They have taught me patience and understanding in ways no other could:


 
STATIC
Chewing Gum  (E)
The sad tale about a toddler who wanted her first taste of chewing gum.
#1163904 by Brian K Compton

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November 21, 2018 at 9:24am
November 21, 2018 at 9:24am
#945974

Gnarled Giants plucked
Of Autumn hair
Greet the seldom seen
Outside a festive door
Where hollow echoes of
Tapping on cement stoops
Alerts of first arrivals.

Blind doorsmen with their
Sunken orange faces
Gaze upon these visitors
With woolen garb adorned
By Winter's wily truants:
Tiny white kisses that wet
Scented warming trays
And deliverances of cheer.

The door unsealed,
Quick to open afresh --
Embraces ignore the chill
Behind each one, then closed
Before the encumbered relief.
A wet clutter drapes, lingers
Beneath, the lone chairs.

Renewed hearts gather:
Men at the hearth,
Women at the table.
Only the voices
Of children do not disappear.
The accumulated din --
A harvest of messages
To and from each chin,
And why
It's been so long
Since the last greeting season.

November 18, 2018 at 11:00pm
November 18, 2018 at 11:00pm
#945832
30DBC asks why I write...

I've only written about this since I could blog here.

Hypergraphia?

I can tell you inspiration fires the engine. Knowing you have an audience adds fuel for one who can construct thoughts into readable, understandable sentences.

But if you are on an island shouting messages to the wind, think again. You can go crazy opining to the tree.

The dream isn't to self publish. You want people to pry to read your words. But, lacking status in a community that awards motivated people, it's hard to elbow your way past to be read.

So, instead, I write to make sense of these thoughts. Write to find truth, beauty in expressions through language. Serendipity will find a straggler or two who will drop back to view one who toils in this dark...lend comment...move on. I'm not too welcoming, reciprocating, I suppose...my flaw.

The novel is the true goal. Desire, ignorance and loneliness drive the engine that has made several runs. The vehicle returns to the shop, new journeys come along...and the distraction of poetry, blogs and news feeds. I feel it's getting nearer the older my children get, the nearer my freedom to tether myself to some word machine to tap these Salinger experiences into my one last fling before permanently retiring misunderstood and under-appreciated.

Sorry, it's me, not you. *Wink*



November 16, 2018 at 4:38pm
November 16, 2018 at 4:38pm
#945697


https://www.poets.org/poetsorg/poems-thanksgiving


'Twas twilight in your hair
         The parting in my scalp
Hidden beneath waves of Autumn
         Summer flowing freely away
To a fading sun collecting
         All our warmth
From marrow wracked
         By black, persistent Winter

Yearning hunger sated
         At our final feast
Harvest's remainder
         Shelved 'til Spring
In the chilled alcoves
         A gray screen sputters
Yesteryear's colors, huddled
         Beneath quilts on lazy chairs
Reclined, sallow limbs pale
         Mints and marshmallow dreams
Fill our pillared heads.


November 9, 2018 at 10:49pm
November 9, 2018 at 10:49pm
#945253
I've written more than a few essays with my blog(s) here, but I'm not about to again. An essay should require thought, necessary research, time to craft, etc. I could whip one up in a day, but lightening would have to strike for it to be one I'd be proud of. And to quote a sassy...um...color-ful lady, 'I ain't got time for that.'
Oh, it could be done in an hour or less. We write essays on tests for subjects we've been studying. I'm not in school anymore.
I could link a few past 'essays' written here that were the result of much reflection before opining. But I won't.
Nature abhors a vacuum. No molecules. Space. Vacuum.
Done.

November 4, 2018 at 9:13am
November 4, 2018 at 9:13am
#944863
The Sugar Dispensary

         Like my mother.
Should I hide chocolate gems
Like the ones we found hidden
In her musty armoire,
Beneath socks and hosiery in the drawer,
Behind the screening flour and sugar canisters
Low on recessed shelf
in packages dusted white
Or share
Watch eager looks broaden
to smiles with each morsel dispensed
into grasping, clutching hands,
the cellophane wrappers
a trail back to their caves,
the playrooms, on the grass
below the swing of a littered set,
Watch them grow sick
Ail before meals pushed away
Without surprise
Their chocolate or sugar blob rewards
for nothing But burgeoning indignance
spills into teenaged years
of truer freedom, when they
Make the most pointed, defiant experts
if proven false whether
right or wrong,
the ignorance of adults
who share their tender morsels.


11.4.2018
7.19.21 edit, second half needs more work
October 23, 2018 at 2:00pm
October 23, 2018 at 2:00pm
#944047
From the Journal of Whatever the Hell Medicine I'm Dispensing:
(I made that up)

In response to the 'depressed' girl who got my DNA:


It takes a good support system to overcome bouts with depression. You can say and do all the right things dealing but no one is capable of doing it alone 24/7. Knowing you can depend on someone gives assurances. Being able to open up about what you feel and not be judged makes you stronger. Thinking you are the only one who struggles alone and shut the world out and you are right back to square one.

Life's ills have a way of sneaking up on you, outright hit you right out of left field. If you don't recognize signs, prepare, you carry an immeasurable weight that will make a comeback seem impossible, possibly hopeless. What you want to be able to do is be ready to face life head on. That might not always be easy.

If something is holding you back from calling out, it has you. You locked your mind up and swallowed the key. It feels like you should be able to do something, lack desire to get yourself out. Your strength is suppressed, your mind blocked from answers it seeks. Having someone who can recognize the signs, know what works best for you, can get you out.

We struggle with why we feel this way. Accept the disadvantage your DNA provides. If medication doesn't work, there is exercise. Going outside and getting sunlight is important. Fresh air and new vistas for the mind's eye are important. The more creative outlet, the more rewarding how energy is spent, and the better you'll begin to feel. There's more.

Eat right. Good food can help. Avoid sugar and carbs that will affect your desire for more. Snack less. Get help finding best foods, meal plans to help. Obviously, substance abuse affects depression. So does the wrong foods. Be careful what you put in your body. If you have setbacks with diet, acknowledge and start over again. There are no failures and plenty of do-overs.

Find an outlet to be the best version of you. What are your interests? Writing, art or something more functional like cooking, knitting, or maybe, reading. When you are being creative, exploring new worlds, you can build as a person. You can try a new activity, do it with friend or family. Experiencing what you like and sharing passions at home and in the community creates extra reward and incentive. You develop interests and grow as an individual.

With depression comes feeling overwhelmed. Doing something like a task and mentally checking it off can feel good. When you reward yourself with an hour of something you like to do, take a break to do a chore. It doesn't require a planner or reminders. When you are ready to reward yourself, think of something to do afterward as payment. You get two rewards in this way, maybe more. As you find yourself getting things done and enjoying yourself, those rewards earn interest. You may feel inspired to get a lot done. It's important to take breaks from things you enjoy. Be sure to get a breath of fresh air and a new perspective.

Now, there are times we get in a rut. Don't blame yourself if you got off track. The moment you recognize is the moment you have that wheel in your hands. Gently return to doing the things that reward and do not bother with that rear view mirror. You can even ask your co-pilots and navigators for help. They say it takes a village. Supporting one another keeps us all strong and happy.

It's important to remember we are human. Our feelings count. We can learn to rely on ourselves. We can have fun and enjoy life. If we can't deal with problems head on, ask for help. Understand, we all have obstacles in our life, just not all the same. We can come together to support one another.



BTW, this is in response to an essay her eighth grade teacher wants to see published, unable to know the true drama we have witnessed that comes from bad habits, not wanting to do chores/homework and hormones uniquely befitting a 13-year-old girl struggling with becoming a woman. Hang in there baby. You emote well, even on paper.

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October 19, 2018 at 9:49pm
October 19, 2018 at 9:49pm
#943784

Just noticed my latest poem was featured in this week's Spiritual Newsletter...

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Thanks Sophy

Also, my 2018 Quill Award nominee "Lost In The Shuttle earned a great honor from "Second Time Around ~ Birthday Special

Merit Badge in Second Time Around Contest
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Congratulations on winning the Grand Overall Prize in  [Link To Item #2164876]  with your beautiful poem, [Link to Book Entry #933358]. This poem really moved me. Great writing!

Rachel *^*Heartv*^*


Thanks Choconut

Great opportunity for those who have contest items that earned honorable mention or less...poems or stories. Was a pleasure!

Brian

October 12, 2018 at 2:07pm
October 12, 2018 at 2:07pm
#943287
I might share a poem with you
         feeling like
I shoved it in your face
You might say, it's nice
When did you write it?
Thirty years ago
But, you look as though
you thought
I wrote it this morning
in response to something
         the way I always respond
And, I learn
from our little interactions
you don't know me
like you say

I tell the same stories
         until they're cliche
But, what you know
is what you chose to see
         hidden between those lines
         in your reality --
fiction imposed on me
of original glances
without deeper introspect
I desire, maybe
         don't deserve
from one as discerning as you

But, I'm watching
         learning how you observe
knee-jerk reactions
you've culled
from one so unwitting --
realize, you changed me
And yet,
I'm the same
after thirty years
         but, not exactly
the person
you envisioned me to be

Because, I'm escaping
on a horizon --
a ghost searching
without you
looking for a man
I was thirty years ago
         once so amazing
want to introduce you to
when I find him

I'll write again
tomorrow and tomorrow
hoping I'll get me right -- that
you'll catch a glimpse
         catch on
so I can begin again anew

Thirty years --
a long time
to be stuck
in that frame
         happy
to smile back for you
         even knowing
I'm not me.
October 12, 2018 at 7:22am
October 12, 2018 at 7:22am
#943269
It wasn't just mom at the table,
It was five mothers who entreated a child
With baked goods and compliments,
While men, gruff, killed animals in their tales
By the glowing mantle of the living room.

It was cozy and bright at the round table.
Some knitted, wore shawls by the cold wall.
Something warm formed a smell enticing
From our nearby oven, coffee aroma tempted.
If you spoke, each scented lady responded.

The men never noticed, took time to feed
A curious child's ego should he near. But,
There was a knowing boy, much younger,
Sitting on our father's lap. Allowed to touch
The stock of a long-barreled gun. And,

When he hungered, the moms would come
Entreat with their adoring haloes, present gifts
Of fresh baked goods from our round table.
And when they exited the door, his cheeks
Pinched, protruding belly prodded, hair
Rubbed a mess, with a smile all too knowing,
As I stood empty, deflecting a lifetime.


October 11, 2018 at 10:37am
October 11, 2018 at 10:37am
#943210
Sacrifice

a dog ate its own testicles
it was so hungry
October 10, 2018 at 10:14pm
October 10, 2018 at 10:14pm
#943177
Do the crickets know

All the commotion began
At 1 pm
With the village tornado
Siren
A front moved in
Our song would pause
Windows cracked
Kill humid
Air trapped
In our halls
Ushered past closets
Walls
Journey out
Meet the fate
Of sweet violinists
Their wings still
Huddled under
Shrubs, logs
The uneven path
Long about dusk
And the gale
And harsh fall thrust
Crushing Hammers the silence comes
Do the crickets know
They die tonight
We must wait long beyond
The next cherry blossom
Greet humecate symphonies
Mild

10.10.2018
October 10, 2018 at 2:30pm
October 10, 2018 at 2:30pm
#943143
I can grow as a writer but not as a person?
Rewrite of "Efflorescence Song should show how I can improve as a poet. At least to me. *pats back*

Am I Loved?

My efflorescence sings on the ground.
A loathsome tree leans low to hear
         aching
branches hang
heavy with love's burden
         leaves
unfurl, spiral breathless
fan glory
burst and fade,
tumble
         dutifully
                   down
crumble, feed life back
to the giver.

Am I loved?
Transparent wind, soft
brushes, chafes
the tender skin
Have I lived if I don't
dance amid beauty
and immortality
knowing certain death?
Shall I shine like the song
some lover sent?
Am I loved
if I shelter myself
from heaven's miraculous droplets of clear purity,
knowing
I'm an unrepentant sinner
'til the day I spoil
the ground with my own decay?

Am I loved
if I don't lend my instrument
harmonize with your golden voice
a wholesome symphony
cascading over mountains
to spare my dry,
forgotten valley?

I will stand on my heart just to hear your proclamations
lifted higher by
faintest of nurturing words
gravitate to hopeful heaven
know I will commune with lasting felicity
But,
I am as simple as dirt
pale as death with two pink lungs
ordinary, dull-eyed
a farm hand toiling some hard land
seek shelter, your offer
of refreshing lemonade.

I have known love
of the most immaculent perfection
unlike oily, piteous contempt
in veil slithering about
I tell you
I'm not worthy of you,
return 'heartfelt,' echoing praises
return to sit
on scorched grass
beneath that most withered tree
thriving
on your craggy mount
like thread roots
still yearn
God's tender mercies,
know the most ugly verses
from tongues
peel our bark, lack
true beauty and
the only reward
one man can earn.


...maybe, it's you. No, for sure, it's me. Child of OCD, perpetually distrustful, hesitant, in doubt, unable to break the cycle of life's punitive, unrelenting dramas (my imagination? Get inside my head..been writing about the stigma). Getting there, though. Not coming to my aid? I've hurt you. Maybe, WE have OCD together?
October 10, 2018 at 9:52am
October 10, 2018 at 9:52am
#943122
...and it's why I'm conceited...or boosts an ordinarily low self-esteem borne out of my OCD that needs ego gratification...that I'm still attractive.

Just today, I get the pretty Latino receptionist at hospital for a blood draw. She's always been indifferent, doesn't seem to feign a smile until she tells me someone will be with me in short order, my cue to smile back, which I do...all formality. I scan the room before I sit down. Never know who you might find waiting. Non-descript setting, as I take my place. I'm playing Words with Friends, finish and turn my attention to writing when I look up. We are in direct line of vision when our eyes lock. She looks away quick to her computer, while I'm turned back to my writing. (Not a Pam Beasley moment)

I finally decided to Google what these little eye interventions mean. Am I picking up some transmission I can't translate? My impression is she did not want to give the indication looking at me when I looked up meant anything. Given her demeanor, it made me wonder if she did what I and all do...evaluate people's looks. Now, I can recall looking at older people when I was young to understand their appearance. Anyone uninteresting didn't get a second thought. But, anyone who could have been attractive or could have done more with their appearance got special study. Sad that they didn't try more or how beautiful they must have been.

I can write off these visual interferences as nothing more than I'm pretty enough for study by a young person who wonders. I wasn't dressed well. Hooded raincoat and sweat pants with ball cap covering unkempt hair. I haven't been wearing my glasses, so my shaded face is good for study. I think she saw something but didn't want me to misunderstand, maybe, a little embarrassed at being caught. Given her demeanor, not wanting to seem weak, needed to feel superior because -- youth trumps my looks. Conceit tells me she would have been lucky with a pairing, if I was her age.

The website I googled supports my conjecture but leaves out things like age factor. Or, that people cannot look away from something hideous, too. I'm going to say I'm not an ogre, though the way I dress suggests I'd be more comfortable in a swamp.

https://markmanson.net/the-levels-of-eye-contact

One week later, I return to the window for my follow-up appointment and she's helping someone at a terminal next to me. I'm greeted by the woman next to her who asks me how she can help. I tell her who I came to see. Name please, I comply and she turns and immediately looks up from her adjacent station to look at me, only I do not turn to greet her eyes. She returns to her work while I'm smiling inside.
October 9, 2018 at 3:44pm
October 9, 2018 at 3:44pm
#943068

I miss the tiny faces,
shadowed, round,
smudging our kitchen window
waiting impatiently
until mother said
I'd eaten enough,
skip the dishes to
aim cap guns
in each other's faces
in our deciduous escape,
unconditional.
I'll be back tomorrows
forever seemed unending.
Hot sun baked the seats of
banana-seat bikes,
handles burdened with
leather gloves --
one hand cycling
with lumbered shoulders
standing on pedals
in cleats somehow
never falling that summer.
Endless fun
shouting, mimicking
our immortals.

I look out now
for those prying eyes.
No surprise.
We're all dead.



IDEA FOR ANOTHER POEM...

How about a poem that stops short of making obvious rhymes to intone what need not be said? Cause we know,
October 9, 2018 at 10:17am
October 9, 2018 at 10:17am
#943046
...I ever wrote. Few can comprehend its obtuse meaning...

 
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The Prankster  (ASR)
Things a boy does to make people laugh only serve to appease himself and cope with grief.
#1195045 by Brian K Compton


October 5, 2018 at 12:01pm
October 5, 2018 at 12:01pm
#942729

Find Me A Dollar
(In This Mud)

where is your coat
warm me
where I lay
on sodden ground
i danced the lonely
dance with a stripper
she needed my comfort
felt my warmth
she lays here somewhere
close beside

where is your solace
beyond this late hour
the sainthood
that could give us honor
lost in this mud
where I wallow
trudge
like I have purpose
a beauty queen
now shove me your dollar

??




My scars are my own
I'm not willing to try
That is why
I hand you the knife
You're so willing to wield

October 3, 2018 at 6:18pm
October 3, 2018 at 6:18pm
#942586
Boxes of Cornflakes
Neatly Displayed
Reside on Shelves
Next to Bottles of
Bourbon and Whiskey
Full and Reflecting
in Recessed Lighting
the Amber Stock
their Flat Friends
from Seed to Spoon
Repurposed, Rejoined
in Morning Bowl
on Table Cloth
what Truckers Eat?

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