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10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

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I'm sorry you got caught in the middle. - me


This poet’s words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The experience of discovery through writing is the truest reward that has allowed me to grow and learn who/what I am — what other people get naturally, immediately, while I stomp around in it.

Been blessed, but pushing it — envelope, world and all inhabitants away. Push buttons, find boundaries to trip traps. No clue why cat curiosity, living in your dark. (Bored, perhaps?)

Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me how I need to be viewed (if I knew what that was). Cryptic, yes. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid strange, virtual, wonderful walls that tower above, tempt me to scale.

Been more than I could imagine or expect here. But, achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall *Think*. I dig deeper than I should, often without forethought. Aimless words, brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit targets? Get a ‘back off’ shoulder shot when asking your motivations here. Not fair?

No prize to eye; not incentivized. Dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do best with what’s in hand.



My Pluggers:
You are an icon here.*BigSmile*
You suffer, but you suffer brilliantly. Wow, what a great writer.*Heart*


It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Poetic Referendum(s) On Life"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

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SuperNova Afterglow: End Of Days  (18+)
All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
#1300042 by Brian K Compton


No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube

Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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January 19, 2020 at 2:56am
January 19, 2020 at 2:56am
#973689
Thanks to concrete_angel
I can dislodge this concept of a poem that has been rolling about the back of my head. Now that we're driving Alex back to school, timing couldn't be more appropriate:

Sorry, About Life

There's a boy
Who wouldn't eat his green beans
So we also heated
Sweet and juicy canned corn
With every meal
At the table
Rarely cleared to be set
With knife    and fork          and spoon.
Then, one day
He moved out
And life has been a buffet
Of green beans since.

We apologize only
For the corn.



I'd also like to thank WCW. *BigSmile*
Title undecided

Keep/remove 'his' from second line?
Not much depends on that pronoun. Think🤔

January 16, 2020 at 6:39am
January 16, 2020 at 6:39am
#973503
My ignorance must please you:
Flail arms, squirm, unable
To appease
One who'd apply their bejeweled
paper crown.
I'm strong enough
Run a marathon but
Not bendable enough
To ply your obstacle course.

As you sit high,
Or swing legs down,
From your mocking perch
(Steel cage of bars),
Saliva drips from your perched tongue;
Venom to me.

I lace my sneakers
For another run
Through this playground
(Your kingdom)
Knowing the race
Is already won.

But who is the victor
As I prepare for the world,
Leave behind a nemesis
Teeter-tottering with no one?
January 16, 2020 at 6:20am
January 16, 2020 at 6:20am
#973499
Smashing eggshell into
The side of a red, teflon pan
Over moderate heat, not hot enough.
Skull imploding, already dead
At evaporation point --
My nuclear winter --
Fried remains inside
Man-made, coated steel.
I slither and fry, yellow
At the core, a baby
Who never arrived --
Just one of 12 crated,
Carried home from that morgue
called the grocery store.
January 15, 2020 at 12:50pm
January 15, 2020 at 12:50pm
#973459


I'm flawed
Though you appear not witness.
I glow
Through the fatal cracks, bleed before
I die.
Should you clutch my hot corpse in your arms
Keep me alive
A little longer.

I'm marked
Though I never was perfect for anyone.
I shine
Through the dull exterior, gleam before
The night.
Dream you'll hold my hand, walk out these woods
Keep me safe
A little longer.

I'm already dead, aren't I?
How long did you know, keep the mystery alive?
I'm wrapped in something my blindness won't see --
Longed it would be your immortal arms.

When the dawn comes
And you're not there to hold me, will you sing?
Can it be melancholy? You don't have to care,
Just let me know you saw me once alive.

I'm cold
Though you never tell me so.
I wonder
If the chill I feel arrived from your ventricles.
If so
There might be hope of rescue from another who'll
Keep me dreaming
A little longer.



2.16.20

Written on fly, as yet edited...now edited a little more...
January 13, 2020 at 10:04pm
January 13, 2020 at 10:04pm
#973333
I've been freebasingforming my poetry, again...

Get My Drink On (Before It's Gone)

I know I'm supposed to sound sophisticated,
Like I know my way around the bar --
Advanced past margaritas and 7&7s
To savor rye whisky from a jar.
As I sip discount bourbon
With Dr. Pepper from hydro flask,
I have to ponder then ask;
When did I stop drinking diet beer,
The kind commercials touted?
And what's this hard seltzer in a can
That tastes like overripe melon water?

I'm dared to mix Monster with UV vodka,
Stir Kombucha with spiced rum.
Yet, where is the fun?
If there's no party to tout these drinks at,
No memory aftermath --
Just a garbage puke bath?

I imagine, because
I'm at home in bed after 50,
Getting my solemn buzz on;
Though I'm ready to party 'til dawn,
I'll view celebrities responsibly drink,
Watch my waistline, I think.
I'll still be pretty at 60, but
I still need to eat. Have you heard
About these low-carb, whole-wheat wraps...?
Meh, who gives a crap.
January 13, 2020 at 8:44pm
January 13, 2020 at 8:44pm
#973327
As I hold you over the water
I say
better learn to swim
my little pebble.

Your dreaming center:
hollow or hard core?
Be like driftwood, though
I know the untested result.
Waters swift could rage,
roll you ashore --
your destiny to meet
with another pebble and more?
Be happy
I do not cast you further out,
test your ability
to find a home --

Because you are my pebble --

I place you where
the waves obey
the white moon,
glowing with
my eternal love.
Hope you roll home soon
with stories to tell.
Ker-plunk!



1.13.20

25 lines, freeverse

He starts his second semester of college. Hope it goes better than the first.
January 12, 2020 at 8:49am
January 12, 2020 at 8:49am
#973219
This short story is really a mystery to some who've reviewed. I clued in those who wanted to know it's meaning. I could have been more obvious, at least with the ending. I reworded the description line and will tell you he is monologuing to a therapist. There's still one vague element to the story that helps explain his behavior, if you'll explore.

It's not long or cumbersome to read. I could use a different font:

 
STATIC
The Prankster  (ASR)
Things a boy does to make people laugh only serve to appease himself and cope with grief.
#1195045 by Brian K Compton


January 12, 2020 at 6:24am
January 12, 2020 at 6:24am
#973214
Not To Dream

I love what you do to my head
But not my gut
Coffee

My lips could consume you
But not my heart
Saccharine

Wish I could see you with me now
But not my love
Morning

I return to my doughy-warm bed
But not to dream
Of you

All the ingredients will still be waiting
When I wake up
Alone


1.13.20

January 12, 2020 at 5:54am
January 12, 2020 at 5:54am
#973213
Your Philosophy, Not Mine
(Sequestered Bastard Child)

The whole world filled
With suckers looking for something to follow
Here I am at your doorstep
Basket-baby rejected
By ones who could not raise
Who would not rear me

Let me stray into your philosophy
Pleading now, tell me
What's wrong, what's right
Why do I bear such shame
In this helpless plight?

But you take me in
Your odd duckling who follows
Deep into night
Sure I belong to help
Carry on your fight

The whole world full
Of suckers like me
Who live by your rules
Sometimes recanted philosophy
Doesn't fit everyone
But especially a loner like I
Who would dare at your table
Ask questions, looking in your eye
I've been alone
Always alone in your sequestering room
Divided but what you believe
And what I think is right

The walls come down soon
In the dead of night
But it will be you who
Lays down, won't fight
Because you're sick of your creation
Who fears you will fright

Am I real if I pale from guilt
The imposed shame I carry
Because I'm a sucker,
Your bastard child alone
In the sequestering room, divided?
January 12, 2020 at 4:53am
January 12, 2020 at 4:53am
#973211
Eviscerating the ignorant. Now that would be a job.
And other things I would tweet if I could
Put the phone down?
Restless with a streaming social media portal begging I give up my secrets but no one will witness. Thanks for the like mom.

I can be awkward. So, the anonymous route or fake profile to say what you mean?
We’ve all been bullied, so don’t open your mind...just tweet.
I’m not here for branders, influencers or motivational speakers...although, they like back, like you first, but usually unfollow as their base of dead accounts reaches a million.
One million fake or dead followers? I can speak to an audience like that. Role I’ve been born to play.
I’m the guy muttering words to himself in public lately. Sing to myself in cars. I tuned out most of you so I can hear myself.
This stream of consciousness is why I’m alone.

January 12, 2020 at 4:23am
January 12, 2020 at 4:23am
#973210
Wrote so many beautiful poems tonight in my head but would not reach night stand to jot down...preferring sleep. But, it’s 3 a.m., so this drivel...

On Ricky Gervais:
Now Streaming...

Truth is refreshing
Truth is fleeting
We live in fantasy
Dream like Hollywood
Always believing
If we mean well
With no actions, Just words
Our invisible tapestry of rhetoric
Cannot tear
If no one can find a thread to pull

You yanked
We could feel it
The soft underbelly
Of fleeting actors
Holding glued costumes and
Hypocrisy. We knew
Here’s a man undeterred
Who should fear
Undeterred, has balls

Truth is out there
Woven thin, invisible to nude eyes
We believe in it
Sometimes touch
But too fragile
Don’t handle it like you
It cannot be grasped
By the likes of us and
Will we hear from you again?
Did you know you built
A right platform
For liberals hanging?
When do the executioners come?

It’s Hollywood
With enough time and money
They’ll write a happy ending
You had a role in it
Now cue Tom Hanks
To play you in the lead role
Soon streaming on ISIS.




Shared later on our Writing.Com newsfeed:

Let pens be sabers like your sharp tongue, tweeted to Ricky Gervais tonight.

I took up a blade:

"Drivel: Gervais/I’ll never be famous"

Sabers. Is that ASR or 13+? Can’t let these word weapons be tools in the hands of our babes.”


ripglaedr3@writing.com
January 8, 2020 at 7:05pm
January 8, 2020 at 7:05pm
#972988

On The Face Of It (Formerly: Take My Medicine)

There's a partially dissolved antacid, lodged in jumbled interstices,
silhouetted amid pale blue-black. Just one roaming, glowing eye,
atrophied by glaucoma, peering at me through misty glass.

Gloom on old man, I'm not moving from my table while you haunt these last hours.
I'll climb into the cold bed with that woman when I'm ready.


The gold eminence of a streetlight below, while purer, is not truer.
Like the tides, I obey. I know you are reflecting the passing day, so I will not forget.
I pen these words to my bitter pill instead.


In just a few minutes, your full face is clean shaven, taking a higher position to keennly watch over me. I crane back and find three offspring descending from you in glass, each grows duller than its preceding brother. I don't know what to make of this. The window refracts your reflected light. My portal closed, til again.


I post it here, I post it there.
I post it in my underwear.
January 7, 2020 at 8:55pm
January 7, 2020 at 8:55pm
#972910
Universally, people are dehumanized,
forced prove they belong with this race --
alone, cut off, as the divide widens.
Individuals, who could form a fabric,
poorly woven, become worn, less resilient.
January 7, 2020 at 11:26am
January 7, 2020 at 11:26am
#972878
I'll write you sonnets, if you witness
Vacuous, hollow words contained
Restrained by structure
Ever toiling to find meaning
Or
Run amok in a field of words
Harvesting life's little treasures
Unkempt, sprawling, falling out
Of pants pockets before I shove
In your tall glass with my water
January 7, 2020 at 10:30am
January 7, 2020 at 10:30am
#972874
If there's one thing I know a thing or two about, it's mind games. More specifically demoralization and humiliation of opponents.

When I was young, I was learning to play. I might have yelled unfair to the kids who dominated the games. You don't challenge the likes of them or you don't get to play. You might get labeled or bullied. They can get other friends to accost you, beat you up where parents don't see. They might utter vague or knowable profanities at you, spit on you. These small people feel justified, even hate. It's horrible what they got away with. Meanwhile, someone who could mature emotionally regresses, acts out. Unable to solve their condition, pay it forward. The difference: they feel regret. But, because none of the original tormentors offered an olive branch, tuck it all inside where it does further damage.

Children who were bullied and become bullies have no one to witness for them. They gladly take their punishment lifelong because they assume they deserve it. In fact, conditioned to it, are unaffected when the next sneering ego-maniac arrives. Must be confusing when I don't flinch.

When I play the game now, wherever that may be. I don't seek pity, empathy, sympathy -- not even an 'official' to intercede. The rules of these games are unknowable, misinterpreted, reinterpreted. And the bullies ... surprise ... have more friends. I can only control what I do by being the most beautiful version of myself. It's joyous. I can imagine there is only one who knows what I've been through and where I'm going.

I also enjoy celebrating the accomplishments of others, lifting them up wherever possible. I can relate experiences with others and realize who else was a troubled child. I can identify who still tries manipulate the game. I'm not trying to beat them at their little games with rules that benefit them and their friends. I already enjoy what I'm doing.

What must be defeating is seeing fewer people want to side with a bully when there is one who plays their game without dying. The one thing my dad was surprised by (hard man to appease) was I never gave up or quit something I loved. And when others see what is in my heart, they turn away from these bully friends. I wouldn't dream of diminishing the bully's ranks. I just want people to do what is right.

I am not evil. I am not out to hurt anyone. I'm ready with love. I'm willing to give...to something that wants to give back what I offer.

This might contradict past positions I've taken throughout life. It's been a learning process. I can change or alter these beliefs at any time...just like the bullies are entitled to do.


(Needs some editing, I know)
January 7, 2020 at 10:01am
January 7, 2020 at 10:01am
#972873
Sequestered

I can see out the door of my room
and down the corridor to look
for the likes of you, as I am sequestered.
I need only look out my window
to view a charming village
where I could go,
should the likes of you inform I'm healed.
I return to my bed, slither in white sheets
The IV drips yellow concoction
in my once black veins.
Lovely nurses might distract with a visit,
change the sheets, feed me, fluff
an every-so-ready pillow.
Why not ignore the halls and vistas seen,
settle in and turn on the overhead tv?
I have health insurance
and the rest of my life.
Even if I'm dying here, I realize
nothing can hurt me anymore.
Even if the white coats do not arrive,
I have family who visit and see
how comfortably I thrive, feel at home.

No one has discharged me; many
have tested my blood pressure,
observed me perfectly fine --
even those unqualified.
Did they correct my illness
or do I mask the symptoms somehow?
Here, the nurse comes, checks my pulse,
takes other vitals. I imagine somewhere
a doctor or two looks over these charts.
Confused that I would take up residence here?

The thing is, I am placating children
playing their medicine game. Adorable
to think what they are doing is real.
I'm only too happy to play along.

But, should I be worrying,
for the other patients? Well,
I'm sequestered anyway.
How much harm?


I'm the eye doctor. Is this better?
January 6, 2020 at 9:21am
January 6, 2020 at 9:21am
#972782

Why?
End of the third season
go out like that
Couldn’t leave us on high
Why?
Should it matter
That I buy into scripted drama
Just a touch of
Romantic comedy to ease
Sexual tension
Why
Buy in when
I have drama of my own?
Can’t script it, give it
Satisfying outcomes
Like yours, like you do
Why
Tease me, make me wait
Until the next air date?
Why
Do I wait until then
For hopeful lives begin again
When
Writers are abusers
Of the sad and lonely
Who
Only want resolution --
Empty, unfulfilled
Until the next
Casting season?
I shout at this toob
Why?!

January 4, 2020 at 12:46pm
January 4, 2020 at 12:46pm
#972639
My wife today, "How can one person think of so much stuff."
"Who me?"
"Yeah," before I realized I'd been talking for over twenty minutes about the finer points on multiple topics. It reminded me of my mom when I showed her the poetry I had amassed as a teenager, 'Where do all these words come from?'
Glad I found the internet where I can spill out, spill over because it seems my mind is an ever raging river...of words.
Which reminds me of what my dad used to tell me, “think about what you say before you say it.” But, if I thought about what to say I would never open my mouth.
January 3, 2020 at 2:55pm
January 3, 2020 at 2:55pm
#972569


This song is Explained as—

“...it's you being different from everyone else, being looked down upon, and having no one who agrees with what you are doing. You look for help, theres no one there. Thinking of alternatives, all you can come up with is to continue to try. After a while, and much consideration, you start to doubt what you are, and what makes you individual. So all in all, it's about rejection of who you are and no one wanting anything to do with who you are, and what you do.”

For others, music -- the experience:

"Back in 2004.. I was just coming out of my shell. Met this sweet dude who chose to chill with me instead of going to a party. We played hacky sack.. badly. Listened to some of his original music.. talked... then he played this song for me. It was an amazing night. I fell asleep on his couch and he covered me with a blanket and went to bed. Never once tried to put any moves on me. I went home the next morning, called him for a date the following night. Fast forward almost 14 years, and we are married with three beautiful kids. Music can make some amazing things happen, when the moment is right. *Heart*
January 2, 2020 at 11:38am
January 2, 2020 at 11:38am
#972473

Me at your age
You at my age
Our story arcs different
Yet the same
Facing the unknowable
With ignorant defiance
For those who would hold back
Our be-feathered arms
Before the high cliffs where
Without ever taking flight
One single certified course
We’re ready to soar
Above the rocks
Jagged, hurtful rocks
That await disaster
And the loving yet fearful
Family with invisible strings
Let us lift off
Let delusion take hold
As we piloted, assuming
No needed navigator
To chart a dream

Chicken feathers is what we had
A cardboard fuselage
And windowless cockpit
We saw dreamy vistas
Believed we could go higher
There were storms
Some strong enough to down us
In cornfields along highways
Where we traveled alone
Found our way back home
Shared stories like
We’d been to Oz
Would one day see an emerald city
But all it was...was Kansas

Time is a journey you take
With those dreams
Alterable visions for future
It’s filled with hope
And promise
But it takes preparedness
And virtue
To stay that unknowable course

You earn your feathers in this life
If you’re like me
And I know you are
And with each experience
Where you fly and survive
Out sprouts another feather
Stronger arms
A more purposed vision
Dreams should always be
On your horizon
Just stop for fuel
And don’t forget home
Along your way.

For Alex who reinspired me

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