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Rated: 18+ · Book · Spiritual · #1149750
10k views, 2x BestPoetryCollection. A nothing from nowhere cast words to a world wide wind

I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost

         |
I'm sorry you got caught in the middle. - me


This poet’s words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The experience of discovery through writing is the truest reward that has allowed me to grow and learn who/what I am — what other people get naturally, immediately, while I stomp around in it.

Been blessed, but pushing it — envelope, world and all inhabitants away. Push buttons, find boundaries to trip traps. No clue why cat curiosity, living in your dark. (Bored, perhaps?)

Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me how I need to be viewed (if I knew what that was). Cryptic, yes. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid strange, virtual, wonderful walls that tower above, tempt me to scale.

Been more than I could imagine or expect here. But, achievements aren’t going on a LinkedIn wall *Think*. I dig deeper than I should, often without forethought. Aimless words, brave or veiled cowardice, flinchingly flung, inadvertently hit targets? Get a ‘back off’ shoulder shot when asking your motivations here. Not fair?

No prize to eye; not incentivized. Dealt the worst two cards before the flop, do best with what’s in hand.



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You suffer, but you suffer brilliantly. Wow, what a great writer.*Heart*


It’s like plugging myself, but using other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "Poetic Referendum(s) On Life"
Your poetic muse is on fire! *Fire* Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal. *Cool*

 
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… *PointRight*   "The Tender Core (Sedona)
I don’t submit because it’s too much work. Truly alone, know no one cares to show they believe/support me. Lip service feeds delusion. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Try not be cynical, work hard at openness and consideration — work, sooo…gut thing.

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Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (no small task considering personal and physical limitations, see below).


August 28, 2006 this blog opened

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SuperNova Afterglow: End Of Days  (18+)
All that remains: here in my afterlife as a 'mainstream' blogger, with what little I know.
#1300042 by Brian K Compton


No specific aim going forward (2014)

 
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: *Cool* *FacePalm* Now: I was such a whore.
 


*Laugh*This is old….
What? Oh, this? A rhetorical, self-motivational speech I'm working on.
Don't just read the parts to construct your theory, as if to confirm (construed out of context) your opinion, mentally-stunted Neanderthal. Therapist wants me to be less negative toward myself. I see it as attacking, rather than being defensive. Fear I will chomp too many bullets unintentionally sent toward the unsuspecting.
If you can be triggered for stupid reasons, then I?
…just looked like me rolling around on the floor with myself.*RollEyes*
             



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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.

Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego.

#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #freyaridings #lyrics #music #video #YouTube

Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
 

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September 18, 2020 at 8:11pm
September 18, 2020 at 8:11pm
#993676
cut off from our favorite place while we're wheeling
through the old neighborhood
places we could travel now
in our heart, in our head

we find the familiar a little worse for the wear
a bit smaller when we stood up
taller, eyes to that future
in the destiny of minds

kept away from the origin of dreams we once had
together, in those summery haunts
graves that bury young hearts
as destiny tore minds apart


9.18.20

September 18, 2020 at 8:13am
September 18, 2020 at 8:13am
#993640
I witness again
another season's end
the gentle divers
get spun around like
clowns, find the ground
where they surround
I explore the sky
wonder why so dry,
bled by unrelenting wind
the sun hides, peeks
over the neighbor's fence
at sunrise, at sundown
i wonder the purpose
of rakes, compilations
curbed, the few vagrants
captured, hurled,
laughing like freedom
Do they think they
escape with no reason
do they know the dry season
sends a red warning
on the horizon before
we wash white with
emptiness everywhere.

Goodbye 2020
Good riddance


9.18.20
September 18, 2020 at 2:31am
September 18, 2020 at 2:31am
#993630
Just for this moment
I get it, Emily --
how a poet needs solitude
to consider these things
unheard above a din --
at the kitchen table --
down the busy hall --
out in the street humming
beyond the malls and restaurants
and places where people
are conforming to bright
distractions and incessant
conversations about: color of hair,
style of wear, tabloids shouting out
beware of celebs everywhere

I see your reclusion and admit
I cannot get away from it
even in this opaque room
where they wheeled me in
fourteen years ago
on life support, thinking
I'll die if I don't write a novel

and one by one, I shut out
each distraction until
I had no friends at all.
Ahhhhh,
or is that me sighing because
I could not escape the one thing
that's been holding me back

all along...

I'm walking away now.

But, I will be back.

My brain is fists for their pillow

that they kindly don't employ to snuff me out.

9.18.20
September 17, 2020 at 12:22pm
September 17, 2020 at 12:22pm
#993571
songs 4 u

songs
on a loop
inside my head
the soundtrack to my life
somber
some melodic
others dully repeat
in my mechanical state

and then there is today
the sweetest clips of harmony
and notes filling a once addled brain
today, a symphony of sounds I share
with whomever will take a seat

just wish I could sing it aloud
but the amplification system
lacking, sounds like...
quacking...or barking...or
I haven't even made a sound

but i'll get it down
i'll keep tracking
these little ditties inside my brain
each stress on each note
I translate, I convert

a special blend from -- within --
one day on a stage
played -- without --
informed by love
for you

*Heart*

"Note: songs on a loop inside my head the soundtrack to..."

9.17.20
September 13, 2020 at 10:45am
September 13, 2020 at 10:45am
#993244
Hope is the thing shotguns aim at
Hope is a shotgun
Hope gets dinner
Spitballing...

hope hunted

i took shelter
in a welcoming tree,
drawn out,
speckled plumage
growing fresh feathers,
squawked my awkward tune.

seed
meant for brighter songbirds,
i gobbled in content
in the colored, yellow spaces at dawn.
warmed by currents

to commune
amid odd ducks who somehow swam with swans
and would bloom beyond
flamingo waders harvesting
plentiful shellfish.

i crowed from shadows
of sheltering branches,
hopped to the edge of limbs
with view afforded
of all inhabitants preening.

hope, ruffled in cold,
shrill winters, invisibly howled.
soiled leaves, couraged by color,
tacked to bare ground
where I spent too long,

refining an awkward song.

through seasons weathered,
why don't i fly?
hope consumed joy in a small heart,
planted in seed scattered?
lead from a bullet fed

i couldn't feel in my heart?

confined in the safety of dry branches,
foolish to feed myself hope,
trust the outstretch hand,
i rest, matted in a cold nest of
dry stick and mother's collections.

melt away from me,
the years it took to consider
hope is the thing that steals dreams,
starve a misguided bird that can't
inform its feathers.



September 11, 2020 at 1:34pm
September 11, 2020 at 1:34pm
#993066
                                                 the falsehoods

                                                 when you present words from your mouth
                                                 I only stare at the framework
                                                 rather than the art.

                                                 when you offer your unconditional love
                                                 I only stare at the release
                                                 and envy your grace.

                                                 I wandered through your world, dipping toes
                                                 in glimmering pools specked
                                                 with golden light.

                                                 I journeyed to tall peaks, shouted loud
                                                 to the purple fields shorn
                                                 with fading sight.

                                                 when you offer bounty from your lips
                                                 I only wonder if they kiss
                                                 like a Judas.

                                                 when you purge free words of devotion
                                                 I could drown in a white sea
                                                 from the highest mount.

                                                 I'll not owe you a thing, if I die
                                                 away from false sanctity
                                                 that won't paint me.

                                                 this would never be our reality.



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September 9, 2020 at 7:56pm
September 9, 2020 at 7:56pm
#992908
                                       i stand here on the edge of the universe
                                       hoping gravity will fail,
                                       knowing you won't catch me
                                       should i go flailing toward
                                       that magnificent sun,
                                       so strongly compelling a soul
                                       to be absorbed by brilliance,
                                       knowing i don't have a chance
                                       to prove my worth,
                                       when you need something on good faith,
                                       when really it should be the reverse
                                       in your slickly devised world
                                       where i climb cliffs,
                                       dare and shout, as if canyons
                                       could hear echoes of years
                                       of self-doubt, when i edged
                                       further out until i could
                                       see a dream burning for me,
                                       eternally like damnation;
                                       flesh for the fire
                                       of your desire,
                                       should i
                                       fall off.

                                       it's torture for a magnetic one
                                       who looks longingly,
                                       blindly...


9.9.20

as the song informs...

September 9, 2020 at 7:34pm
September 9, 2020 at 7:34pm
#992906
spent
kill me

interesting way to hold a dagger

finish me
dead

wield experience to my uninformed heart

alive
you dispatch

a desperate soul enticing would be villain

my heart
strike

you'll never finish me off that way

wrists
still bleed

no place for this blood gushing out

streets red
fed

no, i'm not really dead. your had your chance

my turn
dance

I'm stabbing at words in the dark, how do I

find the
heart?


you're done playing your part. It's time to

dig
your grave.


9.9.20
September 9, 2020 at 7:07pm
September 9, 2020 at 7:07pm
#992901
half way and still building

that summit i saw miles ago i travel to.
i never near
that ocean placed between us --
lack a boat.
this theme is building
in my heart.

the story of the solo traveler on a journey
to no where --
no destination in particular, unless the story
finds me here.
the theme is building
in my soul.

too weary from thoughts of hills and dales,
my mind slopes.
i see a river below and no boat
to row.
no story is brewing.

better put it on the back burner
until another time,
drink my coffee and then whine
about how i never tried
because i never set true goals

to get you to meet me
half way.


9.9.20
12.28.21 edit

September 9, 2020 at 6:28pm
September 9, 2020 at 6:28pm
#992897
It hurts too much to pursue you
I trust that you're inside my head
So many seasons you come and you go
without anyway to know how to capture
you yet. It hurts to believe in what
is unseen, but I still have dream until
this naightmare ends. You have been the one
constant on the horizon begging my eyes
to believe, that you could be attained,
life with no refrains plays on inside
of my head, now dead. I know that I
seem to romanticize, but what else
have I got to give or reason to
live? To pursue you was not the
best choice that I could have made,
but what other reason to try once you
caught my eye. A blazing diamond with blue

Do I regret?

screeeech!!! dead end (guess who, again?)

9.9.20
September 7, 2020 at 8:24am
September 7, 2020 at 8:24am
#992621
I listened to him cynically speak
from our dinner table
the man who repressed
and withheld from me
spewed on about the rulers
who obviously wielded their power
over him
in this world I survived, so far
a world so dark
for a man who had acted
like he had no fear
but knew to stockpile his earnings
in a bank and in bonds
for sixty years long
while I lingered in hand-me-down
rags and survived on meals
prepared from the finest
discount ingredients
I listened to worst case scenarios
about how we could lose
our liberties with life
if we didn't chose
to live more safely
cautious as a nut job storing
a lifetime of winter food in a tree
He died and left it all to me.
Wheeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

Sorry that I didn't share.
He might have been right.

9.7.20
September 5, 2020 at 3:00pm
September 5, 2020 at 3:00pm
#992465
the silencing properties of snow

ice flat serves the black skin
smooth gliding,
sailing on
masses roaming a warming sea.
snow tacked to orange feet
toddle, hopping,
flopping
in an clear ocean heaving thick tides.

when we make land
i will build a fire for us
with hands bare
to the arctic blasts that slow,
and lay
flat on this ground,
recall childhood and
the silencing properties of snow.

home alone in a fort
i called igloo,
in a tight gray and black parka,
a hopping bird reveled
microscopic jewels gleaming.
wind-tossed, the dry crystals
glimmer amid a sun bluster,
peer in, as if they could
crack the air --
the swirling divide,
a tempest of white.
found with my angels,
above the sky howls, a bellow
from behind the heavy door,
come eat soup and crackers,
drink cocoa.



9.8.20
6.24.21 edit to fix "'blustered sun' peering" to "'sun bluster' peered"

33 lines, for nothing in particular, just in case.

Title borrowed from a line and episode of Atypical.
It imagines me imagining me a penguin in childhood. sorry to give it away.
September 5, 2020 at 2:32pm
September 5, 2020 at 2:32pm
#992463
he said if you don't like it
you can leave.
what did he mean?
I tucked it all in
with a decision to make --
prove my worth
or feel shame for something
I couldn't comprehend.

why wasn't I worthy?
why wasn't I needed?
where is the value in
abusing myself to prove
that I deserve to be treated better?

that doormat
you scrubbed your shoes on --
that was me.
I just laid there and took it,
feeling my fibers becoming
more resilient
with each scraping --
sucked mud from ignorant shoes
heeled to you,
dried to a fine dust,
shook out.

he doesn't seem to recall
the impact he had on me that day --
why I still choose to bask
in the sun's warmth,
eat dirt,
rather than find another
place to hang out,
ignored and forgotten.
I'm bonded to cement
by tears tucked
on the underside

I'm not Mr. Brightside

There's no end game anymore.
I'm just a rug
stowed away,
waiting for a warm,
sunny spot
residing somewhere near my heart.

9.5.20
{/hide}


I've never told anyone near my stoop about this. Not sure I knew how to end this for a story that is never ending, with a narrative controlled by the cold one. Not sure why Mr. Brightside. That song probably doesn't apply.
September 4, 2020 at 10:09am
September 4, 2020 at 10:09am
#992348
This was a second place winner.
two 1st place Daily Poem winners for start of September:
"Rooftop Psycho "Daily Poem 1


Are you rare?
visibly, purely red,
breached by no other color,
a diamond of such purity, cut
into shape of definitive existence?
They twist the story of your rarity.
We know of your deliverance,
unearthed by miners, just as
 common as any other gem,
owned by one company
that sets the price on
beauty, properly
marketed.
*GemO*

You could be alone.

Like no other,
placed upon a porcelain
hand given by an ignorant other,
who mines for gems to trade, relies
on a purveyor of gemology. The keeper
of the rarest beauty stands behind a
glass counter with a lens for these
things, mounts dreams on one
proper setting -- the lie of
true value which credit
cards must exist
and depend.
Swipe!
*GemO*

Now go get hitched, fool,
so you can stop being
alone.


It might as well be an artificial construct.

Daily Poem -- Day 4
9.4.20
31 lines, shape poetry

Poem about being alone using words:
diamond shape twist deliverance

SECOND PLACE
September 2, 2020 at 11:27pm
September 2, 2020 at 11:27pm
#992209
Rooftop Psycho

Dancing in the rain with my switch blade out
Laughing on the rooftop, he hears me shout
Singing with the thunder, I might be dead
Body struck, urged like lightening to the head

I wish I was afraid to express myself
Never want so much to be on a shelf
Tears mix with acid downfall, don't know why
Moving with a rhythm, barely have to try

Singing on the edge, a concrete universe
Dark as heavens that urge me to rehearse
Dancing in a storm with thunderbolts on
Don't care if I risk making it 'til dawn

Dancing in the rain with my switchblade out
Screaming words in night, intoxicated lout
Flailing every limb, my legs lifting higher
Look up to the downpour to set me afire

When this rain ends and the sun slowly rises
I get up off the roof, over with my crisis
Tear my tee off, splash puddles as I'm running
Straight to her arms for passionate loving

Maybe I'm afraid, I'm schizophrenic psycho
My electrocuted soul knows a place where I go
To the rooftop access to plead with the sky
Dance to a god witnessing why I still try

Instead of suicide

Which I'd never try


9.2.2020
26 lines, rhyming
DAY 3 of Daily Poem



Stay the blade

😔

1st Place
September 2, 2020 at 6:20pm
September 2, 2020 at 6:20pm
#992183
I got a feeling
I'm going to write a blog entry
for the 20th birthday celebration
of Writing Dot Com

I got a feeling
that I'm going to be rewarded
sharing these words in community
at Writing Dot Com

Where else can you go
to write to your heart's content?
Where on the internet be accepted for
being who you're meant?

Where in the wide world
a writer with so little hope can stay
and find like-minded fools who'll play
these endless word games?

Tonight is gonna be a good night
because I've written down
all these words I have
for Writing Dot Com

Tonight I'm going fly to the moon
and back with a song in my heart
to share with my good friends
at Writing Dot Com

And the silly part of this all
I was able to write this down
before the end of the song
on Writing Dot Com

The End

Brian K Compton

9.2.2020



BLOG: "SuperNova Afterglow: End Of Days
POETRY BLOG: "Poetic Referendum(s) On Life
September 1, 2020 at 9:05pm
September 1, 2020 at 9:05pm
#992081
rainbow morn *RainbowL**RainbowR*

a grease puddle rainbow
rippled,
greeted him on the cement. buffeted
breezes mussed his rainbow
hair.
across the street he came to view
a colorful field. in panorama
his vision soared beyond
a dew-lit yellow sea,
frosted pink, near sunrise.

he reached the rainbow box
to clutch white mail. labels
lovingly adorned rectangles sorted
in hand, one by one. turning
to look upon trees sheltering
a small house, above shutters
dappled rainbow wings fluttered
in colorful, cooing delight.
the wind stung as it might.

he stepped over the remains
of a rainbow night
to rest on the porch stoop
with a glass jar light be-dimmed,
yearning comparison to morn.
it shattered his illusion.
much to this early delight,
it was rainbow, too.

9.3.20
9.11.20

25 lines, freeverse



For Stormy's Poetry Newsletter contest with all prompt words used:
soar rainbow wings delight field sting colorful wind


Original POEM without all the color and highlighting:

WC Winner 7.21
September 1, 2020 at 10:27am
September 1, 2020 at 10:27am
#992030
Now testing to see if you're watching

The hook, line and sinker
Drop below the surface
Just above is the red bobber...


There's a link to the world today
Staring up at me so innocently,
While I'm enjoying a view
From kitchen window with
A sip to savor my coffee.
Just another day.
More click bait.
Go away 2020.
I've had my fill.
Unfortunately,
More than I
Can digest.


9.1.20

Can't be bothered with evaluating punctuation today.
August 30, 2020 at 1:07pm
August 30, 2020 at 1:07pm
#991890
Name it what you will...

The worlds where I reside
are imagined
The worlds I spent years crafting
now dying
The worlds where I cannot reside
don't exist
The worlds in my mind clearly
delusional

Where is the visualization to live
in reality?
Where is the maturation to accept
I live alone?

The worlds that are fading
were reality
The worlds constructed
safe havens
The worlds sunsetting
blind

forcing me to leave

Where is the hand in this dark
to lead me out?


8.30.20

With youth, bliss ignorance. And, where are you now, of a different perspective?





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2009 North Star Award


eternally dead in this world
August 30, 2020 at 12:55pm
August 30, 2020 at 12:55pm
#991889
Seasons In Soil (to my daughter with regrets)

I cared for you throughout all the seasons,
Tended to care all of these years
And still see you struggle
In this soil, with the sun’s love.

It’s still a mystery how
Something once so vibrant
That produced the most beautiful blooms
Witnessed, So ripe, fertile
And tender with hope,
Could hang so low before me.

In all the years,
Throughout all the seasons
With joy I have feared
You might wither before me,
That you might not rise
To meet the white-puffed blue sky
From this humble earth
Where I planted you.

I linger over
Springs enjoyed together,
Summers in my heart,
The bittersweet farewells of Autumn
Before I packed you in
With offerings of the maple’s love.
You nestled with those friends.

Now I watch leaves
That slowly form to stick,
Prone to curl and hide
Immature in any shadow
After the last frost;
Some spotted black
From the briefest drought,
Do not shelter with buds.

A few blooms unfold awkwardly,
Eaten by starving beetles
I shoo away. Maybe, I lack
The love you need to bloom
Again and again
Like you once did, and yet

I cannot give up on you
As I’m your only gardener.
You’re a mystery I yearn
To solve, and one day
Learn to understand.


8.30.20



Got the idea...yes, you guessed it, while tending to my garden.

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