Changed for the worse

You used to be different
Not too long ago
You were you

Now
But a shell
Of your former self

Fun times over
Games forgotten
Laid aside as something meaningless

Well they meant a lot to me
They meant a lot to others
At one time they even meant a lot to you

Why do things change?
Why couldn’t perfection last a lifetime?
Why can’t you just go back to you?

Substance necessary for happiness
No ambition
No goals

Body broken by your form of happiness
Mind ripped in two by your happiness
What about the people who love you?
What about their happiness?

You didn’t think about them
You probably won’t
You don’t even think about you anymore
You just think of your chemical happiness

Incapable of standing straight
Let alone of thought
For yourself
For another
For anyone

People say you’re happy
I sense such sadness
To be happy is to feel
You don’t

Not sure if you can be you again
Not sure of anything
Death is only sure thing
Sudden I know

I hurt for you
To see you
Such sadness
To hold you
Ecstasy

Remembrance of old
To hold you for just a second
To feel like I have some control
I don’t
You don’t

I’d give anything to fix it
To fix you
To get you to fix yourself
To fix us in turn

I’m not Mr. Fix it
I don’t have the cure
I can’t help you
Unless you want to help yourself

I want to save you

Please ask