Deaths Gift

Deaths Gift
By: Christine C.
4/15/05

And you never thought that it'd be this hard
You never thought twice about surviving
But this world is cruel and torments you
Life leaves you alone and dying

Your hope is dwindling
You’ve lost your faith
You blame your God
Yet you feel ashamed

Is there a way out of this hellhole?
You’re struggling just to get by
Everyone seems to hate you
You sit alone and cry

Suicide seems like the only solution
An easy way to escape
You know that saying goodbye is difficult
But wasn’t your birth a mistake?

God’s gift of existence now seems worthless
And you don’t care to go on
The world crushed your spirit
Now your love of life is gone

As you put the pills up to your mouth
Your eyes fill with tears
Your sick of remembering your pain
You are sick of all your fear
So no more questions, you shut your door

No more light
No more darkness
No more pain
No more sadness
Everything is empty

Demise blotted out your light
It stole from you the flame of life
Your body lost its sensation
As your fingers grow cold you drop the knife

Death wasn’t what you’d wanted
It wasn’t what you’d planned
You’d wanted to have peace
But you failed in your defeat

The fierce light of dawn
Comes streaming through the window
Awakening you from your dream
The nightmare has shown you the cruel reality
Deaths gift is bitter sweet

Now do you feel like dying?
Or do you just want to live?