Healing inner scars |
Who is this stranger staring at me in the mirror? I know the face with the high sculpted cheek bones I know the almond-shaped oal black eyes I know the full thick pinkish-brown lips, and the faint jaggered scar on the cheek. I have combed the thick coarse sand-red hair a thousand times, but yet I look like a stranger. To others, I look like a full-grown woman, but in the mirror I see a weak and helpless child. I see her cowering in the corner scared of her own shadow. In her eyes I see the hopelessness and despair that she feels as she drowns in the sorrow that constantly surrounds her. But when I close my eyes and sit still listening to nothing, I can hear it. I can hear the faint sound of my voice telling to hold my head high, telling myself that it won't be this way forever, and that I am a beautiful black woman who is strong and can accomplish whatever I want. Who am I to quit fighting? Who am I to give up on myself? If I don't believe in myself, then who will? So now when I look in the mirror, the face with the high sculpted cheek bones that I've always known The almond-shaped coal black eyes, the full pinkish-brown lips, and the faint jaggered scar on the cheek are beginning to know each other again. Now I can look into those eyes and see love for myself instead of pity, shame, hopelessness, and despair. I can feel a new beat from my heart pumping determination and self-worth through my veins. Though the scars can't been seen and my body has physically recovered, my spirit is still healing. |