another scholarship entry |
What do you do with a failure? I'm sorry... Why did you even create me? I'm sorry... Sorry that I'm not who you want me to be I'm sorry I lie I'm sorry I'm not me... Sorry for the look in your eyes When I screw up yet again And for the sadness in your voice when I try to make amends I wish I could tell you How I really feel What really goes on in my head As I wait for my cuts to heal But I'm no good with words No failure is... I just wish/hope you would understand... My life has gone from happiness and fun To black clouds that always hide the sun I don't know how long I'll stay strong... I love you guys way too much to leave you But a failure like me doesn't deserve you Don't waste your money and love on me anymore I don't deserve it I'll leave you alone permanently... I'm sitting here now with tears in my eyes A failure like me doesn't get second tries I'm trying to figure out how to say goodbyes I'm sorry... I've tried the knife but that didn't work So I'll find another way to leave this earth Don't worry mom it won't be long now Your failure will be gone... If I do decide to go through with this Tell God that I'm sorry I was no good for you I had to go through I was late for the devil's party... I'm sorry I caused you pain I'm sorry I wasn't "me" But the only thing that I ever wanted Was the gift of being free What'd ya think? Some of it is my feelings...but the other part is for a scholarship like I said. please review and let me know what ya think. |