Pain filled snowflakes

My weeping eyes stare out the window following the snowflakes as they gently slide through the air and land effortlessly on the ground. How life must be so easy to be a snowflake. You never have to feel pain, you never have to lose the love of your life. My weeping eyes begin to pour as the snow continues to fall. My breathing becomes heavy and slow as I begin to let my pain pour. The pain I feel is more than indescribable. I can only feel the pain. I can’t say how it is I can’t explain why its happening. Why can’t love be easy? Why can’t it float effortlessly and land on the ground safe without any pain to express. I hate love. Why can’t you forever be within that persons arms? To feel their warmth, their breath their touch? Why can’t they stay with you with fingers entwined never losing grasp. Why can’t they always say the things they know you long to hear? Why? And why do my weeping eyes dry now even though the pain has become worse. To see your face everyday and not be able to call you mine is unbearable. I wish I could crawl into a deep hole where none of this would ever matter. A deep hole where the snowflakes would fall and be my blanket of death. To cover me and warm my dying body while deep inside all I can see is you. All I feel is you. All I dream is you and all I can scream is you. WHY DID YOU LEAVE? Why can’t I have you back?! I hate this! I want to spend the rest of my life with you! Yet you leave me empty handed and broken hearted with the tingle of your lips against mine. To be a snowflake, would be loveless yes- but painless.