You Are My Suffering

I can hardly look at you anymore
The grey of your eyes, the shield of your pain
I should be glad if you pushed me out of your core
Looked at me angrily and buried me in disdain
For I suffer for your sanity
I suffer for your soul
Lost in unsounded vanity
I cannot bear to watch you lose control
I wish I could forget your energy
I could only hope to forget your gaze
When now there is only taciturnity
In your eyes there is only a devout haze

And so I shall cry for you tears of a lifetime
I shall give eternity an ocean to bear
I shall beat my fists against the sky
Lose my reason as I gasp for air
And with every tear that falls, I shall die
My insides sobbing for losing what should have been mine

Your pain has been chiseled into me
I have taken on the burden of your woe
Though sadness has confounded me
And though I am doomed to profound misery
I will take the despondence with the woe
I will suffer so that you shall never know
That deep inside I am filled with ire
Burning for you without tire
And this is why I can no longer be near you
As I hate myself indefinitely when I am with you

-10/30/04 (7:57 PM)