Friendship Ends Despair

Friendship Ends Despair


Being a fool
is a fault of mine.
I cause myself pain
time after time.
The pain is continuous
since I don't stop to heal.
Shame, agony and self-hate
are the emotions I feel.

"Everyone has worth"
or so they say.
Yet, I'm downcast on
even the brightest day.
I try to be positive
with the thoughts in my head.
But depression sets in
and my joy sinks like lead.

Why must so much grief
be part of my fate?
It is much worse
than the power of hate.
Why must so much grief
be part of my life?
The unfairness and cruelty
causes emotional strife.

As I think and ponder
I start to understand why.
For a life without grief
would wither and die.
Sorrow, pain and despair
are emotions we must face.
For without them there would
be no joy, strength or grace.

It took a strong person
to prove this fact to me.
Without the friendship
I would still not be free.
My friend showed me the light
and guided me to the path out.
I now can see life's potential
and reign back my doubt.

There aren't enough words
to express how I feel.
My friend gave me knowledge
and so now I can heal.
Though I still feel grief
it is not as bad as before.
The friendship given me
matters much much more.

Whenever I suffered
a deeply troubled heart.
There you were
to comfort me at the start.
You calmed me when
I was overcome with fears.
My friend you never made fun
of me when I shed tears.

Thank you my friend
for everything you've done.
Your friendship shed light
as bright as the sun.
Though we have since went
our separate ways.
I will remember
our days together always.

This was compiled from two different poems I had written in 1998.
Though the original poem was meant for a single person, there have been several in the last few years who have made a positive impact on my life.