Forgiven or Prisoner?

The new year
has begun
My heart aches
My soul not knowing
whether to laugh or cry

My grandfather
is not here
He died
many years ago

His death anniversary approaches
The pain I feel
won't let me go
I begin to cry

So many things
I never got to say
Guilt ridden
by a promise made

I told Granddaddy
he'd live to come home
Instead he died
three days later

I hope Daddy
will forgive me
I don't think
I can forgive myself

Until that day
I suppose my soul
will be a prisoner
In the prison
of my broken heart