Regrets..

the other night I began to reminisce
and remember all the times when i was with you
i thought about the laughs and each hug and kiss
and every night when conversations would last til 2

you were the first guy i cared about
and the first guy to show me you as well, cared
we shared our times of fun and those times of doubt
but either way, lots of memories we shared

when the day came that i felt we we were drifting apart
i didn't know what to do, because i didn't want to lose you
i pretended everything was just the same and kept you in my heart
i didn't want anything to change so i hoped it would all come through

when i realized that things weren't going to be the same
i scared myself so bad that i cried all day and night
i was so confused because i didn't know what was to blame
i wanted everything to be ok and for us not to fight

when those great four months were ended, i didn't know how to act when i saw you around
it hurt to see the guy who i once kissed was not mine anymore
to know things weren't the same kept me down
i only wished things could be like they were before

i had to pretend that i was strong
because i thought there was something i had to prove
but as it turns out i was completely wrong
i was very stubborn, my opinions would not move

looking back, i realize just how many mistakes i made
i didn't realize that i was constantly pushing you away
i didn't mean to make our friendship fade
and i didn't mean to push you further and further away each day

i only wish there was something i could do
something that would make things more like they used to be
i really wish i knew something more i could say to you
but in my heart, i'm truly sorry and i hope you can see

i hope one day we'll be close friends like we were once before
and i hope you can forgive me and realize how bad i feel
because i want you to know i won't be a bitch anymore
as long as we can be friends again and perhaps someday our friendship can heal