Lonliness

how come it is
that I...
always feel so alone?
I have friends...
yet never really see them.
I have family
yet dont' see them at all
I have lived a life of solitude
yet have crossed the path of hundreds
I sit alone in my room
even when someone is here
why does the lonliness persist?
because i allow it to
there is no other explaination
i have only myself to blame
but i still wish that you were here
to fill the silence all around me

For then the lonliness would be gone