Just what the title says |
Shielded against Life revised Though, you are not here close to know who I am today; Inside, I still do not feel that you are all that far away. I can sit embraced in my protective lover's circle; But, I feel so alone as I am denied love's miracle. I feel the fear and the pressure I know as despair; But, I do not trust her to really understand and care. I was open to love's embrace once in my life; But, that love was twisted and bled me like a knife. Now I shield myself without knowing how; I haven't found the key to drop the protective shroud. The abuse is gone from my life, yet still very much here; All I want is for the remembered past to be gone so I can feel my love so near. Revised June 15, 2014: I added punctuation as recommended by JenP; I also compressed line 8 with a word change. You can still read the original--first draft poem below to see the changes made. Shielded against Life Though, you are not here close to know who I am today Inside, I still do not feel that you are all that far away I can sit embraced in my protective lover's circle But, I feel so alone as I am denied love's miracle I feel the fear and the pressure I know as despair But, I do not trust her to really understand and care I was open to love's embrace once in my life But, that love was twisted so that it bled me like a knife Now I shield myself without knowing how I haven't found the key to drop the protective shroud The abuse is gone from my life yet still very much here All I want is for the remembered past to be gone so I can feel my love so near February 12, 2002 |