Life has a way...

My life is like a continution of a long running sitcom that doesnt seem to have a point much like that of Seinfeld in reality there is so much that seems to have a meaning behind it or a point that is being made, but when in the grand scheme of things it doesnt appear that it really matters at all to much of anyones plight...I fear that last part didnt sound right ...simply put we spend way too much time focused on the dramas and crisis of life that we miss the big picture and that is how valuable and precious our short time together really is....you are here one day and dead the next without even a thought or notion weather it be within your control or by accident death is coming for us all and the time we have living should not be wasted on trivial drama, and issues of such minor insignificance.....when faced with the thought of losing my freedom and the time I have dedicated to trying to maintain it (by not trying to maintain it and taking it for granted) I worry myself to a wrought and exhausting end hoping that i will be granted some glimpse into the future and to see what is coming and for what i can prepare.....reality check that moment will never arrive...because the divine doesnt want you to know the demise for your actions he wants you to seek penance and attempt to remedy your actions before that date.

Is that clear....

is it clear when you feel you have sinned beyond the normal recoginition of repair?

is it clear whom you ask pennance for said sin?

is it clear as to why you feel the need to ask?

Could be shame, guilt, repression or a an afterthought of such devices...but the need to ask remains strong and the desire to adjust and fix such aptitudes is always so fleeting.....do I really care about this body i was gifted ...if so why the abuse.


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