My Solace

Letting you go the easy way
wasn't easy at all!
You have been a good friend to me
and asked for nothing more;
but even that, I could not give.

I resented the time it took
away from things I love.
Reading, writing, playing music;
for those things fulfill me
as no person could do again.

I have a need inside of me
to express things I feel.
Not in a verbal way, like some;
for I'm not that person
who can show feelings outwardly.

I know it's hard to understand;
at times, even I don't.
You need someone who can give you
all the love you deserve.
Someone who can open their heart.

Mine has been closed such long time
but once burst with great love;
and that's OK because
I had everything I dreamed of.
Now it's time to be me.

Free to express these thoughts inside
dancing around my head,
beckoning to be given life;
coaxing and telling me
a magical world is waiting.

30 Lines
Shadows and Light Poetry Entry
Round 136