Apology In a verse

Still owe you 500,
But still blowing up and not down,
Hitchhike on changing buses
To get stupidly high on the inside of town.

Wretched blackmail bastard psycho
Makes psychotic Evans wear a frown,
Coke makes Gareth run the meathead down,
Miles of gas and kind of blue thorns of crown.

It's a crime but I sympathise,
Common threats but no gangs and wise guys,
Deviant hand with sociopathic photo disguise,
Friends know it's drugs and the other is lies.

Metal t shirt with a horse's head,
Junkie with a twat near his head,
Screenshots make my failing ego dead,
So damn high forgot to make my bed.

Thanks but already in chemical hell,
Crystal highs and coke in a bloke,
Overnight insomniac locked in a cell,
Hazchem warning and elsewhere is Biohazard.

Life saving needle injects me,
Maintenance cure dissects schizo disease,
Medication puts voices at ease,
One day thoughts will cease.