Thinking through my pain again |
I am too saved for the world too lost for the church So I grew up in the church and have been in VA all my life It only hurts when I think about it However I have no tribe Yes I have people I was born to however they’re not my tribe The state to which I belong too keeps trying too get me too move away and never return I have a church or two I attend however I am not a part of them They make that all so clear The world doesn’t want me because they see enough light to despise me The church doesn’t want me because they don’t see nearly enough light It only hurts when I think about,so mostly I choose not to think at all about it You get on our nerves talking all that Jesus stuff If he so great why you so messed up and messy says the world You talk a good game says the church but that’s all you do is talk ,be gone You are so weird if you just dropped the Jesus stuff we could like you says the world You should drop the Jesus stuff says the church you aren’t good at it at all You know that Jesus is a matter of opinion, your opinion says the world No I know he’s a fact and he lives within me Do you all know he was really a person that’s a historical fact You know you so messed up and messy says the church you make us look bad As a matter of fact you lucky we tolerate you at all You’ve been around for a long while don’t you see we don’t have your back,that we don’t care Where have you been and why haven’t you been paying attention Pay attention ,learn something and get it together or stop coming back We hate to see you coming and love to see you going I have Jesus in my heart Yeah right and that’s frightening to us since you still so messed up It only hurts when I think about it Natalie you are such an odd duck don’t you get tired of that church girl act says the world We see you going to those churches and we laugh at you the fool because they have your back way back You go to many churches and still can’t get it right I have Jesus in my heart Yeah right and you still a nut Recovery does help When you going to get a man you ice queen,he could maybe thaw you out Poor man never mind we doubt it just play house that’s best for you no man could ever love you You are hopeless you’ve been going down to that church and you ain’t better yet Give up you fool get a clue and join us in the world After all you know the way because you were quite bad when you were here before Come on back you know you want too Noooo,not really, I am good with that Trapped with No place To Go and no real tribe What’s a woman to do,try and grow up and work on herself I guess Pray on ,cry on ,move on,that is it Tried everything I-know to do ,prayed every prayer I know to pray and nothing still I just was not meant for this world There’s a Jesus for all this of course however we can’t seem to get and stay on the same page There’s a Jesus for this however my communication device within seems to be broken There’s a Jesus for this and hopefully one day I will get it right my friend How can you get it right when everything about you seems so wrong There’s a Jesus for that too,wish I knew him better than I do. |