When I realized my first husband didn't love me anymore and discovered an affair |
In our tiny little queen bed We're still a thousand miles apart Where the venom of your silence Spreads throughout my heart We speak words with little meaning Sometimes they've none at all We've mastered all the lying To help us break the fall Marriage equals loneliness But mostly competition When you’ve caused the most pain You’ve done so with repetition Your insults really break me They tear me up inside Where even in this darkness I've still no place to hide My heart's begun to harden The blackest of the black Although I know a big decision Means no turning back I could drown inside these tears Hyperventilate into shock But regardless of my reactions It's my feelings you seem to mock When you push someone away You do so with conviction You're so good at pretending But there is no more deep connection I love you's are sounding pained Or at least they're very flat So I've realized when it comes to me It's just not where your heart is at Years we've spent together Now feel like they've been wasted But the times I'll miss the most Are when your lips were all I tasted This love has no more meaning I've been beaten and torn down I'm a simple, mangled silhouette Of the girl who wore that gown I tried my little heart out Burnt out of my persistence It becomes an endless journey When receiving only resistance I've fought all that's left of me No actions in return For all of that "left of me" Is now laying here to burn My faith in love has faltered Marriage now feels ruined If bitterness is my only option The tables have now been turned This heart has often been broken But also has been mended |