Before The Mistakes

I keep on dreaming but the message is deceiving
This heart is grieving
From the double meaning
My head and soul stay bleeding for my failures they keep repeating
My right foot leading but the rest of me retreating unlucky ass mother fukas pleading
struggled to keep breathing the waters parted like you and I
two receding life lines
theyre not close to meeting
I'm from where they keep one in the gun
Leaving you laying dead under the Cali Sun
Doing it for fun never call my self bad bitch everything in is made of all good dont say I'm a queen of these streets I'm a absolute zero plus one not nice wit the heat guess that's why theyd call
Ms. summer gun
Lighter then a feather but my wrath weighting two tons
Ain't wit that it is what it is shit I need to find meaning & reasons it's what's keeping me fucked up no excuse just the truth
My otherside can't believe the other side so evil it ain't fun to be me
Staying on a thin threaded line while my legs won't shake it's all in the mind set
fuckn time make up the mind being undecided caused him his life
Think about it often
stay sleep two eyes closed like fuck it
don't wanna see it coming
Stay trying to get what I know I can't from you
Feel the toxicity
It's uninviting
Remember you only get one life one mom
Never get to questioning where is it you belong right here in my arms
Now she's gone
They say life's a bitch but so am I
My favorite line after my line
Caught me a numb
Yes I'm High
Just in cause u never get to the true meaning of love want u to know
you ain't the only one
Rivers are blood and the sea is me and u
The eye of the storm
You the wind that they blew
Runs everything in full circle it's no open door
exscape impossible all odds against my success
Success is perpation meeting opportunity at the right fuckn time I'm just saying You gotta always keep the faith still hear them saying
To make it keep praying find me I'll be on some type of bending knees not a real one if you fake it to make net work bring the net worth much higher
Yes I am since Saturday morning it's Tuesday today I'm just saying