Escape the pain

Another cut, another slice
The flash of light across the blade
The skin splits open , the crimson flows,
The pain flushes from the brain.

The cartoid pulses one more time
The clouds of darkness descend,
The light in the eyes starts to dim,
The lungs no longer work.

The pain of life is going now
The painful memories fade
No more flashbacks, no more fear
Your control on me has gone.

Goodbyes are said, whispered in the night,
Farewell to those i love.
Do not pity , do not cry
I am finally free of pain.

Childhood pain has haunted me, I hid it with a smile .
I took the blame, she couldn't do wrong ,
The apple of her parents eye
I must have made a mistake.

The woman I loved then hobbled me,
Her lies and cheating way.
She used her snares to take control
And took away my years.

Now years go by and here again,
Her lies still have control .
My life on hold, destroyed with deceit,
You can't control me now.

So as I lie, staring at the stars
The blood flowing freely from my veins,
I smile up to the heavens above
And wish the world adieu .

So please don't cry, and please don't mourn.
My life was a total mess.
Because I'm a boy , because I'm a man
I'm not a victim , I cannot be free.

So now I'm free, I chose my time,
I cant run or hide any more.
So well done to those put me here ,
May you all enjoy a life in hell.