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fear, desert, depression |
Fear They tell me I'm depressed but what does that mean? Does it mean that I'm unbearably sad? Because I'm not I'm not unbearably I'm angry I'm frustrated I'm confused I'm scared But I'm not unbearably sad I'm not depressed I'm just scared out of my mind I'm scared of rejection I'm scared of being undeserving I'm scared of being a burden I don't want to be the weakest link on the chain I'm scared of being left behind I don't want to be alone I'm scared of failure I don't want to disappoint Don't tell me I'm perfect the way I am I know I'm not I'm told to stop feeling sorry for myself but what else is there to be sorry for? Desert This is the desert of your mind hope and happiness are covered by layers of prickling despair shelter from the scorching pressure of your own expectations exists, but it's impossible to find One misstep and you're drowning in a sea of your own self doubt The more you struggle to get free the faster you sink Your mind is desperate for contentment but you're in an endless drought As night falls, ice cold fear of disappointment seeps into your soul You pray to the stars for a home Someone who will love and accept you no matter the sand clinging to your skin But nobody comes No one even realizes that you're trapped there In your dry, barren, lonely mind Depression It isn't about how many times you pulled yourself up It's how quickly you get dragged back down |