Damaged...

The Death Of Me

Sarah´s POV

I really didn't want to go school today, But I knew I had too. Every time I go into the school, People laugh at me like I'm some joke. Maybe I am a joke, Maybe I don't need to be here. I walk to school almost everyday, sometimes my mom makes me go on the bus. Thank god, she didn't let me on that bus. I walked Inside of the high school, Hoping for no one to look at me or talk to me. I hurried to my locker, And grabbed my stuff and headed off to class. But, I ended up running into someone, Oh he had beautiful eyes.
"I'm sorry" I tried to say.
"Hey, It's okay. I'm Ethan, What is your name?" He asked. I was shocked someone was talking to me, He didn't look like I seen him before. I think he is new.
"M-My N-Name is Sarah."
I finally said looking in his eyes. He smiled at me, then nodded and walked away. Why did he walk away? Did I do something wrong for him to walk away? Maybe it was because the bell rang, that has to be the reason.
The day was almost over no one had made of me today so far, Never mind, here they come already laughing. They start to push me around, and Saying
"Oh, come look at this fresh of meat!" The tall girl said.
I just want to die, Why are they doing this to me? What did i do so wrong for them to come and beat me down?
The bell finally rang, I can't wait to go home, I do not want to be here anymore. I texted my mom and told her that school had just let out. She told me that she couldn't pick me up today because she had company. I wonder who this company is, Is it a new boyfriend? I hope not, she has bad taste.
I was walking home and some white van pulled up to me asking if i wanted a ride. i didn't say anything, I just kept walking. I hurried home, and headed inside. I went into my room and slammed the door. I just wanted to die, but i couldn't because everytime i try, it doesn't work. I get up slowly and head to the bathroom, wondering if i should do what i am gonna do next. I roll up my sleeves, revealing my scars. Wanting more, i pick up my blade and slashing my wrist non stop. I couldn't stop crying, i headed back into my room to lay down. Then someone walks in the room.
¨I'm your mom's new boyfriend, My name is Josh." He said.
I didn't know what to say. When did my mom even get a boyfriend, Why is he even in our house?
"What are you doing here?" I tried asking politely.
He was looking at me funny before he answered.
"I am here to keep an eye on you, Your mom wanted me to. I heard that you have really bad depression."
Wow! I can't believe my mom would tell a complete stranger that. I don't want him here. I just walked away and went into the front room.

6 hours later




I wake up to someone touching me, it is someone's hand rubbing up and down on my butt. I slowly open up my eyes, and when i look over i see him. Josh. He is touching himself as he was rubbing his hand on me. I tried to
move away but he just put me back where i was. He started to pull my pants down, And i starting yelling.
"NO!" I had yelled
"You'll like it! NOW SHUT UP!' He started yelling at me.
I had stopped fighting there is no point to fight if he isn't gonna stop anyway. I just let him do it, It is my fault. he started to pull my hair as he thrusted in me, I was crying out in pain. I just wanted him to kill me. Was he gonna kill me? Or was he gonna keep me alive to pleasure him until the day he dies. 'kill me, kill me, kill me' I was thinking. Then, it was all done, he pulled up his pants and layed down with me.
"Good girl." He said
"Now come here, and lay with me." he continued
I slowly move over and laid down with him. Then a couple seconds later, i fell into a deep slumber.
When I woke up he was gone, Was it a dream? Or did it really happen?
Yeah, it did. Should I tell my mom? No I can do that she wouldn't believe me. I just hope that he doesn't do it again. I go into the bathroom to take a shower, so I can wash him off of me. I slowly lift up my shirt, showing all the bruises he gave me. As I look at myself in the mirror, I can't help but cry. One tear, turns into a million at once. Why did he do this to me? Was it my fault that he did it? I turned on the shower and took the rest of my clothes off. As i step into the shower i wince at the instant pain that was


coming from the bruises. I slowly wash my body so i don't hurt myself than I already did. Maybe i should end it, Maybe if i kill myself he wouldn't do
it anymore. He wouldn't be able to. I turn off the faucet and went into my room to get dressed.
I try and hurry before he comes into my room again. As i finish, I hear the door slowly creeps open. I started breathing heavy, hoping it
wasn't him. I slowly turn around, Opening my eyes. It was my mom, I became relaxed.
¨Goodnight sweet pea, I love you.¨ She said calmly. I just stood there for a couple seconds just staring off into space.
¨I love you too mom, goodnight.¨
I said as I walked over to my bed. As I sat down, I could hear the bed creak. I couldn't sleep whatsoever last night, Once I finally went to sleep. I hear footsteps creaking up to my bed. I tried to keep my eyes closed trying to pretend to sleep, hoping he would go away if i was asleep. No. He


wasn't taking no for answer, He tried grabbing my hand. But i would just keep trying to pull away, he just kept trying. And of course he got what he wanted, I gave up. I just lay there with no emotion as he does these things to me. I give up, If he wants me, I have to give me to him. After he was done i heard him mutter something.
¨Huh?¨ I had questioned.
¨I asked if you wanted a glass of water?¨ He asked like he had not just did that.
¨Yeah, sure thank you.¨ I replied back.
He left the room, a couple minutes later, here he is again.


¨Here you go darling.¨ He said.
I didn't say anything I just took the water and drank it. He left once again, and now I really won't be able to sleep.
My alarm goes off, I slowly getting out of bed, I don't want go to school. And I really don´t wanna stay here, everywhere i go there is always someone to hurt me. I hurried, gotten dressed and headed downstairs. When I get to the bottom of the stairs I freeze and I see him. I tried to sneak passed him but he noticed me.
¨Have a good day at school sweetie, And Me and your mom will not be here when you get home.” He said
I just nodded and hurried out the door. I wonder how long him and my mom would be together. Would he leave her and be with me? All these thoughts are running around in my head, i just want them to stop. When the


bus finally gets here, I get on the bus, as i got on the bus you could feel the bus shake.
¨Good morning” My bus driver said.
I ignored him and went straight to my seat. I am hoping that no one would be mean to me today, I don't know how much more i can take. I walked

down the freezing cold hallway, to get to my class. All you could hear is shouting and yelling. It was starting to hurt my ears, Why do the teachers allow this? I know I wouldn´t. My first period is English, It is actually my favorite besides choir. When I walked into my class, I went to go sit by myself. A girl comes into the class, Straight brown hair, Beautiful blue eyes. And lucky me she sits right next to me. This feels weird, no one ever sits by me.
¨Hey, My name Emma. What is your name?” Emma said.
¨M-My Name is Sarah..” I said nervously.
¨That is such a beautiful name.” she complimented.
I blushed really bad when she said that, I wish i didn´t. I just ignored her for the rest of the class, hoping she wouldn't talk to me anymore. But that didn't stop her.
¨HEY! Where are you going?¨ I hear her shout out.
I just tried to keep walking, and pretend that I can´t hear her. She had the same class as me, Gym. Great, Now I have to deal with this. Why won't she leave me alone? Like everyone else? The whole period I tried getting away from her, but she just kept following me around. I wonder why she is following me, maybe she just wants a friend. I know that i want a friend, I


just don't know if that would be her. I finally got the guts and asked her is she wanted to eat lunch with me.
¨Hey? Do you, Maybe..Wanna get lunch with me? If not that is totally okay with me. I would total-¨ I said getting interrupted.
¨Yes i would love to have lunch with you.¨ She said.
I was so happy to actually have a friend, But i hope she isn't like everyone else. A lot have people have done bad things to me, It is not so much fun.

The bell rings for everyone to know that it is time for lunch, And I look over at Emma and waved. She hurried by me and we both walked to the lunch room. I had no Idea where we would sit, there was barely any seats already.
¨Okay, let's go get some thing to eat.” Emma stated.
I followed her as we walked into the lunch line. We hurried up and gotten our food. Now, the only problem was there nowhere to sit. So me and her walk around to find a table, and lucky us someone let us sit with them.
¨Hey, how have you been Emma?¨ The guy asked.
¨I have been good, and I meet a new friend today. Her name is Sarah.¨ She had said with confidence.
¨Uh, Hey.¨ I said nervously.
We Finished our food, and dumped our trays. As we head to class, I see my mom and Josh walk into the school office. I wonder why they are here, did i do something wrong? I told Emma that I would be right back, and headed to the office.
¨Hey, why are you guys here?¨ I asked.
¨We are putting you in online school.¨ Sam Said.


I am so mad, why do they want me in online school. That doesn't make sense, I didn't get into trouble at all.
¨Why?¨ I said trying not to have an attitude.
¨So, we can keep an eye on you more. And I am going out of town for work. So, you will be staying with Sam.¨ she says like it is nothing.
I am sad now, I can't see Emma. And I have to stay with this monster they call a person. I take my phone out and tell Emma that I don't go to school anymore, and that I won't be able to see her anymore.
Maybe this is what he wanted, maybe he wanted my mom to leave and have me all to himself. Why would he want that? He should love my mom not me. I follow them out to the truck, hoping that they'll change their minds, but

no they didn´t. When we get home, I go straight to my room, and i slammed the door. I feel lonely, and broken. He is gonna keep me captive to my will.
After awhile, I finally fall into a deep slumber. Well, at least I don't have to go to school with those kids. Maybe it is for the better, but I am not so sure at the same time. Is what he is doing wrong? Or is it okay for him to do that? Well, if he is doing that, then it should be okay. But, just to make sure i am not gonna tell my mom.





























Broken and bruised


Emma´s POV


I heard my alarm go off for me to go to school, but I just snoozed I really didn’t want to go. I feel like it’s going to be the same, like every year me getting bullied. I just fell back into a deep sleep, never wanting to wake up. Then, I hear my door open very slightly.
“Emma get up it’s time for school.”
That’s all I hear coming from my mom but, I know if i don’t get up now that’s all I hear. So I got up and almost feel back on my bed trying not to wake up the people I have to “share my room with¨. My mom says every time I ask her why i have to share my room that’s the only answer i will get from her is nothing at all. It makes it seem like she doesn’t care that I hate sharing my room. There is no privacy at all but that’s a different story for another time. I get my clothes that I am gonna wear and change. Once i am done changing i get my hoodie and my backpack. I tell my mom i am leaving, and start walking to school. But, first I have to stop at my friends house his name is Jordan, so I stop there and pick him up. We finally get to school, And the bell rings. I start to head to class, My first class is English. As I Walk in, I see this girl. Beautiful long brown hair, I already knew that her and i were gonna be friends for a long time.




I wonder what is wrong with her, She has dark bags underneath her eyes. It looks like she hasn't been sleeping right, I hope she is okay. I tried talking to her but, just kept ignoring me. As we were sitting in class, I could feel that she was nervous about something. When class was over, I started to run up to her. And tried to get her attention but, I don't think that she wants it.
It was almost time for lunch, and I see Sarah walk up to me. Looking nervous, she finally had the guts to say something.
¨Hey? Do you, Maybe..Wanna get lunch with me? If not that is totally okay with me. I would total-¨ she tried saying but I Couldn't stand hear her stutter.
¨Yes, I would love to go eat lunch with you.¨ I had said with confidence. We started to walk to lunch, and it looked like there was nowhere to sit. I look over at her, and she looked like she seen a ghost.
¨Let's go get lunch.¨ I said.
We went into the lunch line, and get what i normally do. I don't really like eating, it makes me feel like i am fat. So, when we finally get the chance to sit down and eat, I see one of my friends. I slowly sit down, waiting for Sarah so come. Me and him catch up, And I look over at Sarah. She looks really sad, In really deep thought. I wonder what she is thinking about. It must be so important, Because that face she is giving. Makes me worried, I wonder what is going on in her life. Is it as bad as mine? Or is it worse?
We hurry up and dump our trays. We started to head back to class. But, then I hear Sarah say something.
¨Hey. I will be right back.¨




I saw her walk into the office, I wonder why. I just continued back to class, hopefully school will end soon. I do not want to be here anymore, I am so bored and tired.
It is later on in the day, and I have finally heard back from Sarah. She is getting home schooled now, I wonder why. I thought her parents loved her going here. But, i guess not. I hope that one day, she will come back. I have to find out why she isn’t here anymore, why is she not allowed to see me anymore? I didn’t do anything for them to say that she wasn’t allowed to see me anymore.
2 hours later

I am gonna text her and ask her if she wants to hangout. I have to see what is going on in her life. When she finally texts me back, she said ‘I don’t know if i can, he can be really mean.’ And I told her just to ask and that i am on my way over. What if he is doing bad things to her? I can’t let that happen. But, how can i when it is happening to me too? I hurry and walk over to her house hoping that he said that it would be okay for me to come over. I slowly walk up the stairs, and every time i step, you could hear a light creak. I finally had the guts to knock on the door, and before i could i see this man. He is short and has sparkly green eyes. Who is this man? Is this the one that she was talking about? But, how can he be mean? He doesn’t look like he could hurt a fly.
“Are you Emma?” The mystery man said.
“Yes, I am. I am here to see-” I got rudely interrupted.
“Sarah. Yes i know. My name is Josh. Why don’t you come in?” Josh had asked


“Sarah is in her room. Just right down that hallway.”
I slowly walk down the hallway, and i hear muffled crying. Is Sarah crying? I slowly open the door, you could hear a slight creak. She tried to hurry and wipe her tears away, but she couldn’t stop from the tears from falling. I run over to her and try to make stop crying. I hate when people cry, it makes me want to cry.
“What’s wrong?” I tried asking her. But, all she said nothing i will be fine.
Me and her just lay in her bed for awhile, and she ends up falling asleep. I close my eyes, but then i hear someone creak in. Then, I realize what was about to happen. I tried keeping my eyes closed, I didn’t want him to know that i was up. I


felt him move the blanket, and all you could hear was muffled cries out for help. I wish I could something rather than just laying there and being helpless. Maybe this why she didn’t want me coming over, because he was doing this to her. It was hours and hours of him doing this. I was crying myself, because i didn’t have the guts to save her. He finally stops, and leaves the room. All you could hear silent cries coming from her. I roll over and hug her.
“It is okay. I understand what you are going through. You have to tell someone.” I say trying to comfort her.
“No. I can not tell anyone he will kill my mom.” She said as her voice cracked.
“I will try to help you through this. Because what he’s doing is wrong and you need to understand that.” I tried telling her but all she told me to do was leave.
I can’t leave her with this man. What he tries to hurt her more than he already did? But, I respected her wishes and i left. When i got outside, it was freezing cold out. And it was really dark. He is gonna kill me when i get home. I finally get home, and i slowly creep into my bedroom. But, there he is waiting for


me. I try to pretend that he isn’t there but, he yanked on my arm and pulling me down. I tried to run away but, he was holding me down.
“Why did you come home so late?” he said with so much anger.
“I was helping a friend, she needed someone to lean on.” I said.
“Oh yeah sure, Now you are gonna get it.”
I already knew what was gonna happen, He was gonna rape me again. I am already the point where i just lay there. Why does my own father do this to me? He has been doing this since i was 5, I am 15 now. I know what he's doing is wrong but sometimes, i think what he is doing is right. He tells me he loves me, so it has to be okay right? After he is done, he gives me a kiss on the head, and then leaves my room. I just stay put, in shock. Hoping that he will never do it again, but of

course that will never happen. I can’t even tell my own mother because she is always drugged, because he drugs her. So, i have no way if getting help. I can’t even help myself rather than me helping Sarah.
After awhile of me thinking these thoughts, I slowly fall into a deep slumber. When I wake up, I slowly look around my room hoping he wasn't in here. I just want to go back to sleep but, I can't cause if I do I will get a beat down by my father. So, I hurry and head down downstairs and started to do the dishes. I was trying to hurry so he wouldn't wake up angry, I was trying to get everything done before he woke up. And lucky me I did. I grab all of my stuff and i headed off to Sarah's house. I have to tell her what my plan is, and hoping that she would want to come with me. I know that she barely knows me but, She knows that she can trust me. I run up her stairs and bang on the door. Lucky she is the one that opened the door.
¨I need to talk to you, it is an emergency. Is josh here?¨ I said out of breath.





¨No he isn't here. What is going on?¨ She asked worried.
¨No time. Pack your bags. We are running away.¨
¨Okay..¨ she said worried
I hurry and help her pack her bags, and we started to head out the door. I had told her we would have to stop back by my house so that I can get my money. When we get there, i told her to stay outside. Once i get inside, i go and grab the money. I headed back outside. Me and sarah walk to the train station, to leave this ugly place, full of ugly and mean people. She actually looked happy for once, I think i am doing the right thing.


4 hours later

We finally get to the train station, and we pay for our tickets. I was the first one on this bus, and she follows into second. We hold hands, and look into each others eyes as if we were living the happiest life ever. We were off to see the world and no one could stop us. But, I had a bad feeling that someone might actually ruin it for us. What if this doesn’t work out? What if they hurt Sarah because of me? I do not want that to happen, her and i deserve to have a happy life. This isn't fair for her and i.
If they try to hurt her, i will give myself up. Because that is what true friends do, they stand up of each other. And i will stand up for her, even if that means that i will have to die. I love Sarah as my sister, and she shall always be my one true person in my life. I started to think if i should write her a letter just in case that… that I do die. But, what is that makes her cry even more? Sometimes we have to take that risk for the ones that we love the most.
And sometimes we have to tell them why we didn’t have the strength to try more, because even if we stopped trying we should encourage them to keep going for us. So, I start to write the letter.


“My dear Sarah,
I love you okay? Please do not give up like I did. Because if you do. I will never forgive you, You need to get married and have kids one day. You need to be happy one day, even if that means without me. Make sure they pay for what they did to me, or whatever they did. I hope I make this with you. But, if you are reading this then i didn’t. Please try to be happy without me. Move on without me. You don’t need me to keep living on. I will watch over you, forever and always
I love you Sarah.”
-Emma
As i finished the last word, My last tear that i will ever cry finally fell.



























All Hell breaks loose



Sarah's POV


I am finally getting away from this monster, but what if he finds me? Would he hurt my mom? I try to push these bad thoughts out if my head, but they always find a way back to me. I am so happy that Emma said that we should run. I think the same thing was happening to her. Me and her finally get to be happy. Where are we gonna stay though? I hope Emma has enough money for us to live somewhere. I really do not want to live on the streets. We are on our way to New York City, he sure won't find me here. Once we get off of the train, we start walking down to where Emma said where we would be staying. I hope it is nowhere bad, because if it is I would just kill myself.
“Here we are. Sarah isn't is pretty?” Emma had asked.
I Slowly look up and I see such beautiful lights.
“Yes. It is.” I replied.
As we walked inside, I was looking around with amazement on my face. When she was buying our rooms, i went to go sit down. As the time passed, she finally came back and we headed off to our room. I wonder how much money she has? She has to have a lot if she got us into this place.
“How much money do you got anyway?” I asked.
“About at least 2,000$” She said.
“Wha-what? How did you even get that much?” I had asked shocked.
She looked at me with a sad face.
“I had a job, and I have been planning to leave for awhile now. I was trying to get enough money so I could leave. But, then I had met you. And it made even more amazing.” She had explained.
I look at her for a little while, then gave her a huge hug. I'm happy that she saved me. I wish nothing can ruin this. Because if it did, I don't know what I would do.
“I think maybe, I should tell you my past… And i have to tell you something, If something happens to me, go read this.” She said as she held a piece of paper
“Only if you want to Emma. Okay I promise I won’t read it until or if it does happen.” I said trying to reassure her.
“My dad, my father. He raped me for 10 years. And he took me into sex trafficking, and he tried to-”
She couldn't even finish her sentence, her dad and Josh came rushing in. And her dad shot her in the head.
“NOO!” I screamed out in agony. One tear after another. Josh started marching to me, what is he gonna do?
“Hello, darling. You are coming with us.” He demanded.
I just let them, there is no point of trying to stop them. As they take me to their car, there are these people walking.
“HELP ME! THEY ARE HURTING ME!” I Screamed out. I broke away from them and I ran as fast as I could. I'm gonna get away for Emma. I asked if I could use someone's phone to call my mom.
“Hello?” I hear my mom say.
“Mom? Mommy? Help! Josh and his friend is trying to kill me. They already killed Emma! Help me mommy!” I freak out.
“Where are you baby? You have left two days ago, and Josh said that he was gonna go find you! Where are you?” She said as she starts to worry.
“New York!” I yelled.
“On my way!” And she hung up the phone.
I run all they way to the police station and tell them what was happening. I was in tears, I can't believe I lost Emma. She was my best friend, and all she was trying to do was save me. It is all my fault, all day and night I mourn for Emma. Praying that this was all a dream, but no its not. It is a nightmare. They found me at the police station, and i tried hiding behind one of the police officers.
I whispered “Thats them.”
And that's is when the police took them down. I never felt so safe in my entire life. I Still have to read that letter that she wanted me to read, if anything happened. I slowly pull out the bloody letter, and i started to read.
In Emma’s voice.





“My dear Sarah,
I love you okay? Please do not give up like I did. Because if you do. I will never forgive you, You need to get married and have kids one day. You need to be happy one day, even if that means without me. Make sure they pay for what they did to me, or whatever they did. I hope I make this with you. But, if you are reading this then i didn’t. Please try to be happy without me. Move on without me. You don’t need me to keep living on. I will watch over you, forever and always
I love you Sarah.”
-Emma

I started burst out in a million tears, it was like she knew this was gonna happen. I don’t know what I am going to dp without her, but i have to keep my promise to her. I have to get married and have kids, and to finally be happy for once. Even if it is without her, but i still don’t know how I am going to survive without her. She is my sister, and i would do anything just to get her back into my life.
















A New Happy Life


Sarah's POV


In a few months, me and my mom are going to go to trial for what they did. I can't wait for all of this just to be over, Emma needs to rest. With this going on, I don't think that she will be able to. I am gonna try by best to get these bad men in prison for Emma. Soon I will be able to have a new happy life. Every night all you can hear is my mom weeping, I am tired of her crying. She is blaming herself, she thinks that this is her fault, but it isn't, it's theirs.


3 Months Later

Yet another day without my best friend, I wish she was here to help me win this. But, she cannot be here because her own father had shot her. What am i gonna do without out her?


She was supposed to save me, and yet here we are and she is nowhere to be found. Why did her father do this to her? How can people so cruel? This world is a cruel, cruel place.

I don't want to live in it anymore. But, i have to because I am keeping my promise to Emma. I slowly walk into the courtroom, I see them glare at me. They looked at me like i had killed someone that they loved, and wanted revenge. I slowly look over and i see Emma’s mother, she looked like she couldn’t breathe. I do not want to know what is like to lose a child, because that is the worst pain you can ever feel. I went up to the stand, I told them the story of two beautiful young girls, who got something stolen from them.
I told them that how can your own father take you into sex trafficking and then shoot her like it was nothing? I told them that these men should pay for what they did to us. And they did, the jury chose our side. I read them Emma’s letter, and everyone was in tears.


“My dear Sarah,
I love you okay? Please do not give up like I did. Because if you do. I will never forgive you, You need to get married and have kids one day. You need to be happy one day, even if that means without me. Make sure they pay for what they did to me, or whatever they did. I hope I make this with you. But, if you are reading this then i didn’t. Please try to be happy without me. Move on without me. You don’t need me to keep living on. I will watch over you, forever and always
I love you Sarah.”
-Emma
Everyone looked at me as if I was telling a story with a happy ending, but no. This ending will forever be sad, And it will never will be without Emma. They are gonna rot in prison for the rest of their lives, And hopefully they think about what they did was wrong.
My mom and I finally get to live on with our life, we do not have to be afraid anymore. They will no longer be able to get us, we are finally free. I can’t wait to get married and to have kids, I can’t for my mom to be able to sleep at night. Me and her should be happy for the rest of our lives.
I will still miss Emma but, she will always be in my heart forever and always. Sometimes, I still feel like that she is still here with me. I wish she was by my side to get my through this, but everything happens for a reason.


8 Years later


I have two beautiful kids, And a amazing husband. They helped me get through my rough times, and i am finally happy. My mom is finally happy too, she is happily married. I kept my promise to Emma, and i plan to until the day i die.
She lives in Colorado, and living the happiest life she could ever have. I still wish Emma was here but, in my heart she is. I am slowly getting better, and i am happy more than that i have every been.
I think maybe it is time to move on from Emma, I need to let her go. She has been a bad memory for me, for a very long time. But, that doesn’t mean that I don’t love her. I do love Emma with all my heart, She saved me when she couldn’t save herself from her own demons.