Kind of sad but I needed to write it <3 |
I can’t believe I’m here again I promised I wouldn’t cry Feel like there’s nothing left to gain But I hold that thought inside I fight so hard Every hour of every day But it feels so useless No trophy I can raise I’m so sorry I can’t be who you’re telling me to be I never knew I had a choice To do something other than agree In silence I stand waiting like your loyal devotee But now I’ve found myself falling on my knees Praying please someone please help me You’ve done so much to me Physically and emotionally And yet, somehow, I’m the one Who’s constantly feeling guilty You never apologized You left me to pick up the pieces To put my life back together While my hope just decreases I’m so sorry I can’t be who you’re telling me to be I never knew I had a choice To do something other than agree In silence I stand waiting like your loyal devotee But now I’ve found myself falling on my knees Praying please someone please help me Even after all of this, I don’t hate you They tell me to leave but I just can’t My whole life has been centered around Those toxic words you won’t recant I can’t believe I’m saying this But, unfortunately, it’s the truth It doesn’t bring me bliss But maybe there are symptoms it will sooth I’m so sorry I can’t be who you’re telling me to be I never knew I had a choice To do something other than agree In silence I stand waiting like your loyal devotee But now I’ve found myself falling on my knees Praying please someone please help me I’m still fighting I don’t want this to be goodbye But my hope is slipping And I wonder if life is better in the sky |