I needed you

I needed you!

You asked me to be open and to talk to you.
You wanted to know what I’d been through.
I told you I didn't want to talk about it.
It’s not something I would openly admit.

You asked if I can cope with being an adult,
Then proceeded to ask if it was your fault
I tried my best To tell you how I feel,
By the way you reacted it was no big deal.

I tried to tell you, I want to die,
but you didn't even ask me why?
You told me I was selfish,
And that I’ve got everything a person could ever wish

It took all my courage to tell you what is going on inside my head;
you don’t understand how much I want to be dead.
I told you how I’m really feeling,
But it didn't do much healing.

You moaned at me for being sad,
that made me feel really bad.
You tried to act like you care,
but your reactions to that were unfair.

I tried to tell you without making myself cry,
and then you made me out to be the bad guy.
You asked me why I’m so unhappy,
I tried to explain but you got snappy.

You told me there’s no one to blame but myself
Now i wont share my feelings with anyone else
You looked at me with disappointment and shame
You told me if I killed myself you don’t want the blame.

So I walk around with a smile on my face,
Cheerful and happy full of grace.
But on the inside I’m just a disgrace
I feel empty and alone in this awful place....