The selfish me

I was helping Lillie clean her room this morning. I started working in the closet and found a storage box with her baby clothes in it. I have saved so many and honestly have been saving them for another child. It brought back a comment from a family member a while back telling me how selfish we were to want another child. We had 3 that were healthy and to let someone else have one. While it made me mad, another feeling crossed my mind. I guess I am selfish, because I want another child to experience what my kids have. I want them to have big brothers to pick on and a big sister to share secrets with. If its selfish to want another child to go on adventures with and to teach them how to fish, I guess I am. I know there are plenty that want a child that are childless. My heart breaks for you, nightly I pray for you. But ever the optimist that I am , I know there is one that may not even be here yet. I know there is one waiting for us as we are waiting for them. This is one of those times that it's ok to be selfish. There are so many children that are have no forever family, so many babies born and left for dead. So many children you see in the news that are abused. I along with alot of other familes would take those kids in and love them to pieces. Nothing justifys being abusivie to a helpliess child.