Even after what you did... I still care. I wish, all this is a misunderstanding. |
I Love You By: Marium Asad I don’t know what happened I don’t know when it happened I don't know why it happened I don’t know what I did to you But you still left me We were together Intertwined perpetually And whoever tried to occlude us Let’s just say The cemetery got a bit bigger When we were together We were strings and sounds We were flowers and water We were film in a camera We were indivisible No matter how much our clique pullulated No matter the amount of impediments No matter what others did or said No matter our differences We were with one voice I wish I knew what I did wrong I wish I could have been informed I wish that the past isn’t a gray-scale reality But one I could change Even though what can I change without knowing the error? I wish I knew why you shut me out Shut the door of your life in my face Gave me the cold shoulder That turned me to ice With only hot tears melting it You left me pulverized and fragmentized A mirror in a million morsels A smashed vase with cadaverous flowers The cracks amplifying every time I see you Or I recall how we were together Your indifference had me torn A ripped paper; A shred What motive did you have To throw me away Like a beat-up rag doll? Am I that much of a catastrophe? I know I'm not flawless Did you require perfection? Sorry I'm not a Utopian Sorry for not being as good as those trash pictures You still lapidated our friendship You scattered our memories They conveyed nothing Empty as space Non-existent I apologize for being inferior Sorry for not being tolerable We were like night and day yet our differences were inconsiderable I was inaccurate but deep down I know It wasn't our differences; You were overtaken You let yourself be overtaken so you saw me as an extra As a leftover; A sideliner An unwelcome guest; An old memory That should have been bombarded athwart the Atlantic Instead of an extra waste of brain cells Why Why leave me secured to shackles and chains of depression Why Why walk into the light Leaving me in the darkness You turned way Traversed to get away I ran after you But the closer I got the farther you were So, I ran until I crashed into a wall of verisimilitude You left me heartsick You shattered our friendship like glass So even fixed The cracks will still be there You left me a rubber band Snapped to only Never be put back together Two ends of a metal chain Never to touch again You set a meadow of yellow roses on fire The flickering flames burning And turning everything To ashes Dark black ashes The same ashes you used to burn me The smell of smoke is still there The smell of black and blue Scorching flesh is still there Black blood dripping As a result of betrayal Turned down by the one person I trusted Executed by my own best friend My own blood spoiled by the one person I'd give my life for I thought dreams were real Like little children's hopes They just stepped into their reality Their reality is an innocent fantasy Why did you crush it? Why crush the fragile balance Of truth and honesty Of love and truth You fragmented friendship Why I climbed an endless ladder That had great altitude No matter how high I got no matter if my knuckles turned white in struggles to hold on I fell; plummeting towards the earth; a dark abyss of my life Blue skies turned dark and stormy As I fell they rushed by My spine cracking on impact Worst I landed on torn shards Shards of our friendship Small smithereens that dug into me Pierced my skin Submerged in my flesh Cutting my bones in half Staining the grass I don't want you To be my snake in the grass I don't want revenge Despite being heartbroken It could have been different; I wish it was If only ugly pictures hadn't taken over you If only we had found a compromise sooner If only I had realized sooner If only you ran from tube light to sunlight If only you knew what you caused Just like a broken necklace Each bead falling to the floor The beads scattering and rolling Just like your head cut along with the necklace Just like sword stabbed in my back The one that you put there Out of hate or pity; Either way You didn't see us completely You didn't see me completely I'll elucidate I couldn't hold on to you Like water slipping through a fist I look into a mirror of my life And it shatters from mournfulness Your hate turned into a monster Cruel and hideous And turned you inhuman No heart; No soul Just there to spread terminal sickness You ripped me apart Crumpled me Threw me away I was worthless remember? So why care? So, go ahead Do to me what you like Torture me; Kill me Have sharp cold metal Pressed into my neck And all the way across Crush my bones like you did my heart Use them as powder in your potions That are used to back stab and destroy To have that cut on my neck Bleed a little faster Have blood a little quicker Stain the sidewalk a bit more swiftly Burn my corpse a bit more hastily Have no mercy; Kill me a bit more slowly I'm still here I'm still waiting I don't care what you did to me Please break free from hate Please come back Because I believe in you I know you can find your heart That needle In that haystack I know you can come back Because I'm here Because I'm waiting Because as friends I still care And... I love you |