Alone

My depression is a raging war that I'll never win. I try to fight, but I know I will never win and there are circumstances that enrage my depression and anxiety to become a burning flame. I'm starting to feel alone especially since my husband is distancing himself from me. My husband's mother and I do not get along which makes our relationship very difficult, and it makes me scared and feel like an empty void is inside me. I have been told that my grandfather whom I'm very close to has pancreatic cancer, and will not live very long, for me losing someone or having the sense of lonlieness triggers the depression. I need help, and support I have truly never felt more alone.