Pretending

Pretending

I pretend I’m okay
when inside, I’m dying,
feeling the weight of defeat
in a battle I cannot win.

I hide my pain deep within,
painting on a smile for show,
hoping my eyes won’t reveal
the dark secrets I hide inside.

I go through the motions of
living a life full of hurts,
acting as though all is well,
knowing that it is all a lie.

I use different things
to get through each day,
hoping that night will come
to whisk me away from this pain.

I pretend I’m okay
while inside I’m screaming,
“Why doesn’t anyone see,
this battle I cannot win?”