I decide.

3/13/17

I Decide.

Jeezy I'm here tryna win but what exactly is the win?

When exactly can I cry? when exactly did I sin?

When exactly can I save? when exactly do I breathe?

How long to hide the tears ignore what's happening to me

Why can't I be your happiness?

when exactly can I need?

When exactly does it stop! when exactly can I breathe?

FRESH AIR

when I get to stop pretending

when can the real just be

When does the tears stop

when will IT stop fucking with me

When does the shame stop and God stand for ME

Or is He angry and the fucked up shit that's happen he blame me

Is He a He

Could He be a SHE and tell me how to breathe (just tell me how to breathe)

Or not all the guilt when I scream its hurting and I badly want to leave

Daddy's just a dream that died and there's no little me

Is it cus I'm so fucked up and been fucked up they CAN'T see me

Why can't my heart have a home to not be taken easily

Fuck everyone who can't love my love cus im fucking crazy!

you is crazy too why can you just not see?

there is not a seed to wipe my blood

so here are tears for the exchange

tears you'll never catch

this catch has forever changed

the poetry has died and pianos a God damned shame

there's no fire here

but the forest misses the rain

you'll say I'm strong

they'll say I'm strong

the girl who knows not her name

the empress

The Empress will always remain

We cannot give up

Never surrender to darkness

There is no concrete soaking who you are away

Look at me

Look At Me YOU!

YOU forever stay

No one can scream or kill nor will they beat your memory away

It's not based on tomorrow

And there is no wait

Look how you've grown without Kings reign

There won't always be mercy

But you will birth again.