Hopeless Romantic

As a hopeless romantic,
I stay hidden inside semantics.
Not thriving because
Defining what I want gets harder
Everyday
What can I say my heads spinning every way

If I lost you or you’re now gone, in my thoughts is where you’ll stay
If I loved you I probably still do,
If I fucked you I still feel you

Distance really doesn’t matter
Fuck how far
This really isn’t about you
But who you are,
Or who you could be, with me
In my mind, don’t forget that

This is a hopeless romantic quick fact
Even if we don’t feel it
We try to give back as much love as possible
Even when those wandering doubts start to occur
And it’s nothing they did wrong
Just the reason i’m writing this here song
My brains too fried off hits from the bong
How can you expect me not to think about everything that could go wrong
Damn
I’m always tired of it
Damn
I want it all, so I try to covet
Perfection, which is hard to obtain
When the vision of it is getting insane
When I dream, all i see is her name
Yet when I wake I just stay in my lane
Damn

Just a shitty ass hopeless romantic
Once it gets too real,
We start to panic
Thinking she was what we want
Found out she’s not perfect
So how can I flaunt
And I know it’s wrong to lead on
Only to be forced to hurt you
But I was lonely and thought “this will do”
Even if only temporary
It’ll be easy for me to move on
After carelessly dragging you along

Same situation again and again
We had to try
but damn maybe we were better as friends
I made you cry
Cause you felt like I’d be there to the end
A better man
Than, the ones you’ve encountered
I’ve got no counter
Because I thought I was too
But instead my mind was surfin
Preparing for a perfect you, to come along
To end this songs repeat stage
Send it into the conceptual love album haze
On shuffle, a stage, like the Weeknd

Until then I’ll stay hopeless
Not chasing but focused
On defining and finding
What I want and unwinding
All these thoughts
So I can stop whining
Bogus Antics
Taken for granted
Heartless Titanic
Bottomless mantic
I’m a hopeless romantic

Note: So I wrote this after listening to a song and being a bit bored. So attempt to read it with a hardcore rhythm like music/hip-hop as the best option but it's not necessary for the message.