The Date

There once was time I never knew you. Life simple.
Unbound by your presence.
Unmarred by the turmoil of your new arrival that first day.

Then you came. Showing yourself to me as a flame to a moth.
Your pride only enhance my excitement of you.
You made me stand tall. You gave me meaning. I felt alive.

Our time together rolled in to years.
Unwavering, you were there never missing our date.
Steady and strong fast. True to your mission and faith.

Giving me purpose. Keeping me strong to what I was.
Oh yeah there were times I would go... I need break, not now!
How about a vacation.

But you whispered, This is who we are.
Be strong and embracing our strength of what we can do together.
You know what it means for us to be together.

But then you did take a vacation.
Not many. Only a few. But you always return to me.
With pride of what was accomplish during your away time.

But Still you stayed with me.
Our dates rekindled.
Months turn into seasons and those seasons into years.
And I found myself clinging to your meaning and purpose selfish for me.

Then you started to fade. Not totally gone. Just a little tired.
You'd whisper. I am still here for you.
We can still do this.

My heart sank as I noticed...
Our time had become a bit shorter.
This made me angry for I was not ready to be without you.
I regretted having spout off at times," How about a Vacation this time".

Being without you meant I was less. Something different.
I realized how scared I was going to be without you.
Because with you I had purpose that only you could give me.

For a time you would still embrace me for our date.
Though just a little less tighter. Though a little less longer.
I saw you grow tired. I was so proud of you and what you had made me.

You'd whisper. I am still here for you.
We can still do this.
Just a little longer.

Then one day...
You were hardly around for our date. You whispered.
You must so lean to stand strong without me.

Our journey has been such a grand one.
You and I have accomplished so much together to be proud of.
But you now must seek your next chapter.

My heart skipped a beat as our date passed.
I thought to myself. Wonder how the vacation is? Ill see you on our next...
Then our next date passed. I was worried. What have I done to upset you.

You slipped to become a Phantom.
There once was time I never knew you. Now I knew not to do without.
Unbound by your presence. Unmarred by the turmoil of your new arrival that first day.
I now remembered the same kind of turmoil and fear.

I still watch for our date.
I look at the pictures of our children and smile proudly of what we accomplished.
I could have never done it without you.

I sigh knowing your time for us had came.
I just was not ready for it to end yet. But you knew.
Just as you knew when it was time to come into my life. It was time go.

Just know.
Though, scared for this next chapter.
You gave me great pride and power that I will always carry with me!
Thank you for taking me through these stages. And giving me the power to be a Woman...