Progression

A year ago, I fell in love.
I had never before reveled in such bliss.
You gave me confidence and joy.

Through that year, I lived a lifetime.
I had never before shared such passion.
I gave you my heart and my soul.

A month ago, you left me.
I had never before writhed in such pain.
You smashed my dreams and murdered my hopes.

Through that month, I felt no solace.
I had never before suffered in such a hell.
I gave you my life and you threw it away.

A week ago, you met her.
I had never before felt such jealousy.
You gave her the promises you once gave to me.

Through that week, I lived a nightmare.
I had never before tasted such bitterness.
I served you poisoned words, hoping you'd choke.

A day ago, you called me.
I had never before reeled in such confusion.
You offered your friendship instead of contempt.

Through that day, you haunted me.
I had never before fought with such frustration.
You brought back the memories I had destroyed.

A minute ago, I realized my problem.
I had never before ached with such emptiness.
I had prayed I was everything she couldn't be.

Through that minute, I buried a fantasy.
I had never before entertained such foolishness.
I reminded myself that you weren't coming back.

Right now, I am weeping.
I have never before drowned in such sorrow.
But I'd live it all over
if you gave me the chance.