Maried to my Jane

I desire you but I have to let you go. For years you were my backbone. Picked me up when I was down. Still I cannot let you control my life anymore. It is over. From now on when I want you I will do something else to distract myself. It is hard but I have to do it to grow. I have so much to accomplish I cannot let it be comprimised. Mary you have guided me to do good but there is nothing you can teach me anymore. I need to be sober, clear and focused now. There is much dependant on what I will do. How can I abondon everyone for you. I can't please understand. It will be hard I cant sleep without you, cannot clear my mind without you but that is what makes me weak now. I will succeed. Atleast I hope I will. For now this is the last time we will meet. When this roach is sizzled out. We will part ways. Till next time or rather not.