Dear Brother

As I inhale the devil
As sin invades my soul
I'm watching my life
As it passes me by
It seems I've lost control
As I breathe in this poison
As it invades my mind
I am just a servant
To a master so unkind
As I fail my children
Losing sight of what is real
All that really matters
Is the way I want to feel
As I succumb to madness
Though I'd teetered on the brink
Nothing stings like
showing yourself
Just how low you can sink
As I hurt my people
Though they love me
Through it all
They don't deserve
The pain I cause
If I could, I'd undo it all
I have finally hit the bottom
There's nowhere left to fall
My madness is a fact here
Just writing on the wall
As I follow meekly
Just another sheep
If I sow seeds of idiocy
What havoc do I wreak?
As my soul is bleeding
I thought I knew so much
I didn't know a goddamned thing
I miss my life so much
Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Sex don't equal love
And
Love don't equal trust
That's the lesson I take
From all of this shit
I don't know why I started
And I don't know how to quit
I've thought of pushing matters
Of ending it all on my own
But I've hurt these babies
Quite enough
With this foolishness I've shown
I sometimes wish
That I could die
Just wish myself away
I don't have any wisdom
No poignant words to say
If I could somehow fix things
Could take the hurt away
I'd give my heart and soul for you
Though it doesn't seem that way
And so I walk away from you
Trying to leave you alone
I only want to save you pain
I cannot make it home
I always know you love me
You always know the same
I've forgotten how the sun feels
Lost so long in the rain