Serenity of the Stars 2B

My eyes snapped open, where am I? I looked around my room, I’m in my room? How did I get here even? Short flashbacks are slowly pouring into my mind. Edan’s face is the first picture I remember, the expression on his face was nothing I’ve ever seen him do before. He looked almost dead inside, his eyes lacked all luster. I never thought of Edan as a violent person before, but now, I’m not so sure.

He protected you, get your head out of your ass for five seconds and realize he helped you. Would you?

Hey, aren’t you supposed to be on my side?

I’m on your side, it’s just kind of hard when you’re acting like a little bitch.

What do you even care for? You left me, remember.

What did you expect? I gave you plenty of warning about Steve as well as what would happen if you continued to date him. You expected me to stay around and watch that piss ant beat you continually? Knowing I could kill him every time he struck you before he blinked was the worst part I think.

I don’t know what I expected, I heard your warnings but I never thought you would actually leave. Besides, he didn’t hit me that much. It was only when he was angry, I usually provoked him.

Wake up, and stop acting like you deserved what he did to you. I warned you that if you kept with him someone would defend you, if not me than Edan. He was always noticing the bruises on your body. Every time he was around you, did you never notice his eyes. Even without seeing his eyes survey your body, you should have at least noticed the concern, the worry he always had when he was with you. That young man is probably the closest thing you’ve had to family. Did you think pushing him away was going to make him quit caring about you suddenly?

I don’t know I hadn’t thought that far ahead. Wait! That power Edan used to kill Steve. You told me there are eight spirits total, does Edan have one as well?

Yes, Edan has a spirit as well. Hephaestus, the god of fire. I know him well.

You know him well? What does that even mean?

Just like I said, I know him well. Like Edan and you, Hephaestus and myself have known each other our entire existence. That’s a story for another time. The important part right now is you forgiving Edan. You didn’t exactly give him the gratitude he deserved you know. He almost died because of you and your abusive boyfriend. Hephaestus really seemed to be doing what he could, Edans emotions must have been out of control.

What? You’re blaming this all on me? How dare…

Shut up! I blamed you because it’s your fault. What did you expect when you chose to spend your life with someone like Steve? Especially when you already had a great guy like Edan in your life, who may I remind you did anything for you. Do you forget I was there with you? After his parents who dragged you off the street disappeared. I was there as you watched him fall apart. I was there when neither of you knew how you would survive after the charity from the community dried up. All those times you were studying or waking up to him dragging himself home, barely able to stand. Do you forget why he did all of that? You know he could have just left you get sent to an orphanage. The council allowed him to stay on his own because they knew he would survive, even a boy with his courage could easily survive here. You were a different story, he had to plead just to get them not to send you away. You think that was easy for him? He worked himself to near death to make you happy. Even now, he almost dies protecting you, and all you care about is yourself.

How could I possibly ever forget all the things he’s done for me? I was there, I know what you’re saying happened. He killed my fiance. What he did for me is in the past. This is the present. He doesn’t feel I owe him anything and neither do I.

That’s where you’re wrong. You owe him everything you are. He would never say you owe him anything. You know him better than that. He did everything he did for you expecting nothing in return. How can you possibly turn your back on him though? How selfish can you really be Kendra? I left you a while ago because you were turning into this person and I refused to help you anymore. You continue to be a heartless, arrogant, self centered, bitch.

If you think all of that, why don’t you just go back into hiding like you did before. I was doing fine without you, your friends, and Edan trying to control my life. I don’t need people telling me what to do all the time.

Don’t get me wrong, my staying is not for you anymore. I feel you owe Edan something, even if you don’t. I refuse to leave again and allow you to treat him like anyone else anymore. So, we will do this one of two ways. Start acting like the kind hearted girl I remember before you and Steve got together and show Edan the friendship he deserves. If you chose not to do that, I can always just do it for you until I feel your debt has been repaid.

Are you suggesting you can control my body? That’s ridiculous, is that not counter intuitive of what you are supposed to be doing?