Dr. Death

As I'm waiting for you my heartbeat picks up speed
Knowing that you have exactly what I need

Trying not to want it, but we both know that I do
Caught up in a world, I know that isn't true

Every time that I take one, it makes me feel so free
Wishing for a life, that I know could never be

I am changed forever, stuck deep inside this hell
Coming here to see you, trying to get well

You were supposed to help me, I put my trust in you
Now I think I'm dying, can you fix that to?

Hating you for killing me, yet still needing you so bad
Wishing for my life back, and everything I had

I now live in the darkness, that dwells inside my head
All because I did, exactly what you said

My life will soon be over, for I cannot fight this fight
Despite what you say, I know this isn't right

It started out so small, just something for the pain
Now if I don't have it, my body goes insane

So now here I am addicted, and I have no strength to quit
My doctor is my dealer, now isn't that some shit!

*Not sure about this completely so any feedback or advice would be appreciated!*