It's Just Because

It's painful.
Sometimes, Life’s just too painful
What people expect of you
Who they want you to be
Who you should be
And what you shouldn't do
Yet I'm not brave enough to fight against it
To follow my own path
And do what makes me happy
Instead
I take it all in
The comments, the rumors, the judgments
The greedy desires masked behind seemingly caring words
And I suffer
Trying to meet these demands
And my heart bleeds
So I
Started telling myself
That I’m not human
Because if I'm not one, then my chest is empty
I won't be hurt
Because I won't feel pain
I don't deserve happiness
So I don't have to do what makes me happy
And it will be okay
To let others manipulate my life the way they want
Because I'm not human
And I am empty.