Good enough

I will never going to be good enough for you,
From the moment you looked at me I knew,
You always think and say I have to do better,
But my opinions and how I feel do not matter,
Your dissatisfaction is the only feeling I can feel,
It makes my self-disgust and self-hate more real,
And it doesn’t matter how hard I try nor what I do,
I will never be good enough according to you,

Now, as you turn away,
My life returns to grey,
“Your grades should be better”,
How I feel just doesn’t matter,
I have tried everything I knew,
But nothing ever worked on you,
I’m good enough when I dream,
But once I wake up; I just scream,

And with only one; single word,
You are able to shatter my world,
My efforts you cannot see,
So you just punish me,
Proud of me you will never be,
I might as well drown in the sea,
And it will never matter; because whatever I will do,
I will have no chance of being good enough for you,

Everybody is different yet you compare me to the rest,
I hide my tears because yet again I hoped for the best,
I will never let my tears fall in front of you,
I wonder what would happen if you knew,
How much I try and fail to make you understand and see,
That though I’m not the best but you can be proud of me,
My grades don’t show my intelligence or my personality,
Those beliefs are just this stupid society’s mentality,



But you don’t even try to understand you just punish me,
“You don’t work hard enough” you say as if you didn’t see,
Don’t you remember; I asked your help but you were too ‘busy’,
And now you’re blaming everything on me; it makes me dizzy,
I go back to my work; I don’t believe it will change a thing,
I feel nearly broken; like a guitar which has only one string,
I feel like giving up – why continue if you don’t comprehend?
The number of times when I thought it would be the end…



But I go on again and again; try to make you see,
There are tons of reasons for you to be proud of me,
But I know I should just give up like most people would do,
Because there is no chance for me to be good enough for you.