broken promises

all my life i've put my trust into people.
my whole, complete trust; only to be completely betrayed and let down.
let down by the same people who promised they wouldn't do be like the last.
so i can tell he's lying, i can tell he's lying right away.
i can tell by the way his eyes don't quite meet my own as i'm talking.
i can tell by the way he fidgets and sways a little to the left.
i can tell by the way his voice cracks a little as he tells me he "won't do it again."
i can tell by the way he says "love you" rather than "i love you"; he says it quickly, too, almost as if he's afraid if he says it too deliberately i'll see right through him.
i can tell by the way he promises he won't do anything to break my trust again.
i begin to wonder if he ever had it in the first place.
i also begin to wonder if maybe i don't trust anyone at all. maybe i'm stupid and crazy for being so cautious.
but then i remember how many times i've been let down and i think,
"people build walls for a reason."
and i have my reasons.