Swimming With Sunken Birds

I'm sinking with the fallen ones. Insecure and rewarded. In a cascade of beast that once were majestic. Abilities far greater than my own have now become a worthy advisory. My only solace is to float. What I've been doing is trying to find a idol to look up to. Something to make me try harder. Creatures of the sky seemed to be my best option. But as I swim in this abyss, I'm surrounded by fallen figments. Innuendos of my admiration. I swim with sunken birds.