Hate myself

H is for the harrowing of living day to day
A is for the affirmation of how I lost my way
T is for the terrible thoughts of debating life and death
E is for everyone I wish never had a breath
M is for myself the worst one of them all
Y is for the yearning to hear the pipers call
S is for the selfishness of my wishes hopes and dream
E is for energy it takes for me to seperate delusion from real
L is for the love that I pretend to feel
F is for the my family for the pain with which they must feel.