Smile again

All the words left unsaid

My love, as you took your final breath and shed your last tear; I pray you felt no pain and that your mind be at ease as you laid there in the shadow of death.

It was as if my soul had fragmented and the air ceased to enter my lungs when your body went still and never moved again. Pain coursed through my veins, as I realised that you were gone forever...and the fault was all mine.

I should never have let you out of my sight that day. I promised you that I would never let you go, but I did...and now you're dead. Never again will I feel your feathery lips on mine, and the hands that had caressed my face with such love were now lying limp upon your bodice. How I wished that I could love you back to life.

The feeling is indescribable, when one has to say goodbye to one so precious. I had so clawed desperately upon your coffin in the hope that you would rise again...You did not. As flames licked hungrily at your corpse, and your beautiful face, was melted into ash...the heavens opened and mourned for you.

When you died, a part of me died too. Now I cry myself to sleep, clutching the jar that holds your ashes, whilst praying that I never wake up again. Though time marches on, it does not heal the wounds left in its wake...for some things cannot be healed or erased. Even in death you still have all of me, for I loved you more than life itself...a love so pure which has been torn by death.

I will break down the gates of heaven, though a thousand angels stand waiting for me. But I will not lay down my weapons until you are in my arms once more...until I can see you smile again.

In this barren wasteland that harbours my ghost, on the date of your passing, it is my heart that awakens and weeps for you. Perhaps I will find you again beneath the skies of another world; but I will never forget the sparkle that diminished from your eyes as you gazed at mine for the last time.

By Erin Munisamy, Age: 15 09.10.14