A poem about being lost in the throes of depression |
Darkness Darkness laps at the edges of my soul Paranoria runs rapidly through my viens I have no passion to be around people I'm terrified to be alone with thoughts of self criticism The door slammed shut on the only glimpse of joy I was given Shame erodes my bones Guilt makes them brittle Loneliness is my constant companion The world is gray and desolate All light is filtered out Even the smallest beam is not allowed in A wall surrounds my heart I gave no consent to it being built I'm all alone Falling into the abyss Twisted roots of desperation grab hold Tearing and clawing at my flesh Anguish and cowardice are my companions Peace and courage have abandoned me Sorrow and misery my only friends Falling ever falling Is there no one to catch me Will my world ever be full of light and joy Tears stream down my face As I yearn for laughter Grey and bleak is the world I inhabit Sewage and mounds of garbage Litter the ground of my self made prison Willing or unwilling I must stay in my cell Darkness has enter my soul I am lost to all that love me I am lost to myself Forever lost in the darkness |