urge to escape the mundane |
Sometimes I go away, I disappear for entire days And it worries people you know So I got to write a note, leave a message, "I'm alright, just going for a walk..." It's always so dark Always alone, going where my legs take me I have to leave, I need to "not be" around I need to find sense and clarity People disorient me. I need to run away Across bridges Bridges are my first love To the sea, to the foam, to the black burnt sky, touching the symbol of infinity In the deafening clutter of train wheels thundering past nocturnal birds Gasping up at the moon with my awkward limbs Stunned by the perfection that hangs golden and pure over the insanity that is humankind I am tired I am tired of you being afraid for me Why are you so frightened? I'm only going for a walk, I'm only talking to myself Do you maybe want to hold my hand, so I can teach you how to fly without shifting a knee or lifting a thigh? I don't dare look at you But I know you want to know And I want to tell you, To swim with you, stretch your limbs before the sun, my love, walk with the crown of words I made for you But then you can leave now Before it's too late And I know I must recede, recede I will I'm just talking to myself I'm just talking to stained walls. |