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Over the past few days, I have seen a different person within me .people started saying that I am changed I do not know what the change they observed in me. Nevertheless, my life in past few months I smile less and frown more. I laugh less . I feel something missing. I feel desolated .I feel I lost the happiness, which I possessed in her presence. .unknown feeling pulling me down, that waning my heart... I feel my heart is weak.
I was then affable with everyone but now me don’t even want to talk to anyone. I prefer to be alone .the music, which was my companion now I am afraid to listen. If I listen I remember her if I remember her. I miss her.
Everything that I enjoyed with her seems tame without her. I tried hard to fight with my feelings but I just could’nt. Everything changed in my life without her but the thing, which remains until my last breath is "love for her ". its her. its priya
it’s been a week since i talk to her .the feeling of emptiness of the day without her talks is bothering me I did it myself not because i m not interested in her talks it’s because d fact that she will never be mine .she is continuously calling me. But i m rejecting those calls. After repeated calls she messaged me
Priya: Where r u? Why u r not responding to my calls?
i wish i could reply but i didn’t. I’m missing her badly. I missing her talk’s .I missing her eyes which makes fall in love with her
it’s been three years since she came into my life. The day i saw her in class i was spellbound by her beauty. Her smile especially her eyes der is something in her eyes that makes everyone falling love with her. First time in my life i felt something different in my heart It’s not what I feel for her it’s about what I don’t feel for anyone else but for her. i never believed d saying "love at first sight" but that is absolutely correct. Yes i fell in love with her
since we r in same class our friendship grown rapidly .we became close & best friends.
She gives more important to my talks my feelings .she never quipped about my feelings. I feel very comfortable when I’m with her. I feel very complete when she is with me .She never make me feel desolate when I’m with her.my love towards her increased more when i got to know about her completely. . All of sudden she started taking care for me some times I feels like she likes me.my days used to starts with her messages. she used to wake me up with her cute messagees.my life became more beautiful with her presence around me. She used to share all the things which she likes and which she doesn’t like. There is one thing in her that make her special for me is she is the one with whom I could be myself .she was the best thing that ever happen to me.she is one who will listen I have to say without judging me.I love the way she shares small little things with me. Der is a common place for us to meet .She is the one who chosen that place when she has free time to talk. She says she want to meet at that place that place is a heaven for me because i can stare at her. l love the way she talk .i love the way she moves her hair strands to ear she will do it in a different way. Her cologne, her eyes i can stare at her eyes entire day that eyes has something to attract everyone. Her cut excuses to me whenever I get angry. I just love that

. I wanted to say what my feelings towards her. But somewhere in my heart the fear... what if she don’t love me what if she don’t feels d same way. If i propose her she might think that i m stalker.. . I strongly believe that she perceives a good friend in me. It leaves me two options. One is expressing my love to her. Another is to keep waiting until she loves me. this is the best way to hurt myself .i chose latter.so decided to not to tell her what i feels for her if my propose hurt her den i will never say that which hurts her though the pain of being ignored by her who means a lot to me is bothering much. Instead of that I penned down all my feelings as a dairy i used write the every moment that I spent with her. The worst n painful feeling is when the person whom u love the most sitting beside u but u know that person can never be yours .it’s became difficult for me when she sit’s besides me n sharing cute talks yet i couldn’t tell my feelings. It became too difficult for me to handle this I thought avoiding her will helps me in this So i decided to avoid her
That avoiding gave so much void in my life .whenever she want to meet me i started saying "sorry priya i had some work" meet u later" though it hurts me more than her but i had to do it is destined to be like this. The every endeavour which i do to forget her is reminding her so much. no matter what I do she will be always in my mind .It’s hard to forget the person who gave so much to remember. This rejecting calls is one of my effort to avoid her
She messaged me again "do u remember whenever I feel low .u used to say to me
"whenever u feel low just message me I will be der right beside u."
I am feeling low now. Where are you? Dis time it’s like i felt something heavy in my heart. As the days go on depth in her messages gradually increasing “Just talk to me once” was the last message sent by her. That message was last jab to my heart
.And later she mailed me"
yash. What happen to u .if i did anything wrong n if i hurt u sorry . But don’t punish me like dis .with whom i could share my happiness.
You made me smile when no one else did
You wiped my tears when no one else did
You cared for me when no one else did
You gave me strength when no one else did
I know der is something bothering you .i can feel that in your eyes .i observed that last time when we met. Then why don’t you share your agony with me. Because i m your only best friend. No?
The very next moment I feel like

"I wish i hold her face with my hands i look deep into her eyes and i would say hey gorgeous i fell in love with u".

As I feel the tear go down my cheek,
I notice that my heart is weak,
For the love I have for you,
Will always be gold and true,
Even though I am not the one who u want.
You always have the key to my heart.
Forgive me, priya
Forgive me for hurting you
Forgive my heart for loving you.
Forgive me, my love